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I have a title in mind today that I wanted to blog about.
But I guess I'll postponed it to some other days.. Haha..
Its about studying locally and abroad.
I'm abit slacky today.. So yeah kinda lazy to blog xD

I got some random pics here today..
and today is Yong Kang's birthday!
today is also Yen Feng's birthday.

I think this year we manage to celebrate almost everyone's birthday in form5.
Almost. Everytime cake and song.
At least this show that we remember the birthday and have a heart to celeb it?
Leong they all are in Juang's house now.. Say celeb Kang birthday wor.. kewl~ xD

and I forgot to bring my camera today! =(!
Have to use my phone to capture pictures. Not very clear @@

Exam timetable is out!
and its...right after the holidays again! ==
utter crap max.
I have to study at home again and going out with a heart filled with guilt o.O. lolz

I currently feel very satisfied and ..contented. o.o
No one would understand how satisfy I feel..
At certain times I even feel the feeling of happy is so much that I wanna explode.
Perhaps this is the pure joy that God gives... in an unexpected way. =)

Some parts of my "emoness" is tingling me now and then trying to prompt me to emo.
If you know what I mean.
But .. The satisfaction overcomes it.

Sometimes I do wish I have another one.. I just want. Haha

http://www.webmd.com/cold-and-flu/news/20090424/mexico-swine-flu-epidemic-worries-world

http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/20090428/ap_on_go_ot/us_med_swine_flu_worst_case

SWINE FLU!! PIG FLU!! Selsema babi!! Pork flu???
Its kinda scary.. I read in the newspaper today that from 81 people who was claim to be dead yesterday has rise to 149 people.

Hmm.. I dont know.. there was one part of the newspaper which wrote.. " we are all wondering is this the one epidemic that all has been afraid of that would come , that would kill millions of people. "
and some sort.. I forget.. It was in the malay news paper.. Lolz..


Sounded really scary.. Thank God that the virus did not reach Malaysia, and I hope Malaysia does not get infected.. or else there'll be more death.
I pray that God will protect Malaysia.
I also hope that those countries that are affected , God will stop the increasing of death rates ..
Yes, all these is written in the Bible, but ... I just dont hope to see more people dying because of viruses.
Its really scary sickening to death @@... blah~

Takut!


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I'm having bad flu = = Lolz.
Whatever. Anyway.. hmm..
I dont know what to say.. I just feel very very very happy..
=)... I've let go part of it... Praise the Lord.


Its really amazing with how God plans stuff.. I never expected it to be this way ..

details? In my private blog =p
So sorry readers~! There are some things which I dont wish some particular people to read it. =p

I have totally forgotten what I wanna blog about today.. LOL
Oh well.. whatever.

The weather nowadays are just so unpredictable.
The past months it had been hot and cold.. It be either day or night it scorching hot , then next is a real heavy rain..
Which because of this, alot of people fall sick..

Starting these few weeks, the sun is so hot that is like whenever I'm under the sun I feel like I'm get roasted in an oven. Zzzz
I feel very frustrated everytime i'm in the sun.. Its just too hot..
effects of global warming?
and I'm feeling sick most of the time.. Blah~

Stupid = =

Today Wai Hoong mention about the bicycles the school gave away was just crap. LOL
Her sister got one , and when they went home, the pedal was broken. LOL!
So , conclusion , my school is not as sporting as we thought it has become. ~ Blah~~

One thing , I wanna thank God for sustaining me through the whole 3 busy weeks with finishing my project and stuff..
and thank God for everything he gave me throughout the week..
not to mention , indirectly maybe he did grant me something which I didnt pray for.
I said to.. sinyin .. and myself that I wanted to meet new people.. A rather much newer environment... Thats why I was eager to leave school..
I didnt request or prayed about it , but somehow or rather , last Saturday I manage to meet few new people. =)

And , uhm .. I dont know..I kinda feel a lil weird ..for sometime already ..
I think its because of my unstable emotions between interval periods..
lol @@.. My emotions are jumpy , its sad to super sad , then neutral to happy, and max happy.

So yeah , currently , I'm very happy. LOlz bleh =p

Random ah~ why am I so random these days @@

I think my blog has been dead and alive these days.. Its like I update today.. Then its gonna be dead for a few days..
Blame me for being lazy.. and quite busy.. I think I've finish quite a number of piled up works..
Now comes another project.. Add Maths de ==
I totally have no idea how to do it.. Lolz.

Blah~ Whatever.. Well.. I think these days I've been quite disconnected with the online world..
It no longers tempts me to online.. I guess its just been too much of online in my younger days..
* I sounded like I'm really old =.= *
I used to game / online / watch anime till 4~5~6am in the morning =p

This year , for the very very first time in my life.. I'm motivated to study..
Very much motivated.. Almost a big partial of my thoughts are thinking about my studies..
I'm very .. kinda worried about it, interested about it.. finding time for it.

Hmm.. I will try to update more often.. alot of pictures are in yiru's camera! Kelian~ @@..

I just had my hair cut yesterday =.=
I went to Sg wang this time.. I wanted to rebond .. Blah My hair curve like gila siao .. what to do xD
So yeah.. I went back to the one which I had my fringe cut.. Mum asked for the price..It was reasonable enough.
So then they had a so called " professional " to cut for me.. I think he is.. But dont know la.. The way the talked and teach his junior sounded Pro.. Lolz.
Tapi dia bnyk lengzai.. Aku bnyk suka == LOL.

He asked when did I last cut my hair.. I say Dec.. Then he say.. Why cut until like that!
Very thin , very layered. T_T.. Cant save much til its longer.. because that time really that aunty cut til short and layered max.. Sam tong sei me T.T

Oh well.. the price? half my hair's length.. rm200. I didnt rebond all. Lolz and my hair is not short.. so yeah consider reasonable price.

You know , people tend to not reco me if they've seen my net pics .. They dont know its me..
Some say I edited the pictures so much that it makes me looks so fair..
which is SO NOT TRUE ==
at times when I use my camera / phone to snap pics.. there are angles that actually makes my complexion brighter.. @@
And.. Lol.. Do I really look that different from pictures and reality ?

Im considered quite happy currently.. I'm moving tiny steps forward everyday from my.. " destroyed fantasy " LOL.. and yes im improving... which is a good thing..

Being very very random .
My dad got new hobby..again.
He started with computer craze a few years back.. Then to cars .. then to health.. then to fitness / body building.. Now..? KUNGFU.
Yea kinda lmao right? But its my dad.. He's all sorts xD He likes to learn very much I guess..
Even at a age like now he still wants to learn more.. I think thats a good example =)
He wants to learn Aikido.. Heard before? I saw the classes.. Its really good.. Its interesting to learn!
and he wants to learn " Weng Chun " which is in the IP MAN movie. Kewl right?
I want to learn too! I told daddy I wanted to learn after SPM.
Now my schedule is just too tight @@..

I occupy my weekdays with tuition's homeworks and studies.. and No I'm not bored of it.
Call me No life whatever. I have more life than you for the past 16years =)
Weekends ? Occupy by... SHOPPING!!!! LOL
seriously I think I went out alot alot alot of times for the past months.. Not with friends but parents..
Now that my dad had lost weight and loves to walk.. I get the benefit to go shopping more often than I used to xD..

Blah~ Right.. Thats all for today then.. Its a post full of words.. I wonder if people will get bored.
Just too long no update le.. Keep jumping topics here and there @@.. Ciaos =)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RxPZh4AnWyk

Watch this video!! This is just amazing.

Her voice stunnes me. I dont know whether I'm quite late to know about this .. but yeah I still just wanna share it. Enjoy watching. =)

Despite few weeks ago I was completely free from homeworks, these few days the teachers started to pile us with homeworks again.
I'm still rushing to finish my project.. and today.. I on-ed my msn...
Effects of on-ing my msn :
Sure no time do my own work.
Occupied with conversations. @@



Crap. I feel kinda stress out. Stressing myself out. Blah~ I dont want to on my msn until I'm really free... its killing my time..
I want to blog.. But I always no time also!

Well ok , so last Sunday, our Invasion of Form5 cg to Form1 cg was well a sucessful one perhaps.
Though we didnt manage to be in time to perform a worship for the form1's.
I had to share! "where to worhsip "
It was a short one.. But I was anxious giler.. I was afraid that I would talk then stop then talk. Lucky I didnt @@..



Yea, so basically I got to know some of the form1's.. I sat with Jun Yee and Ginette ( if thats the way how to spell their names)
They were like the past of me and zanne.. close like mad man.. they were like " we cant be separated " was exactly like how I and zanne was. Haha
resemblance. =)

On Saturday , Joshua ceebrated his birthday at Sunway.. which I couldnt make it because my dad didnt want to fetch me that far..
So yeah , then Meitheng ask me to go sgwang with her.. So I went..
Good shop that day.. I bought quite a number of things.. almost emptied my purse =X
I met alot of people in KL that day too.. Richmond, Rachel , SL gang.. haha

Blah~ I'm jumping topics here and there~! cant help it.. everything is in my mind for these past few days that I want to blog about..Its all exploding out~~

Yesterday was the worst.. I was cleaning the house and talking to my mum during the night.. Wa s hot and swaeting like mad.. and there goes kok leong who smsed me which I didnt look at that message because I wasnt free. He called up an call me to go outside.
They manage to find my house! My gawd.. He wanted to see how my bag looked like..Tracy wanted a bag like mine..
Kang and Yoges was with him.. Yoges drove..
I asked them how they managed to find my house.
It seems that they search every house for my car.. swt =.=



Ok, next .. Kang found out that Christine took his sis phone (postpaid) to send rm30 daily to her phone.
The bill sum up to rm183.95. MY gawd!
We caught her today with proved, yong kang lectured and question her.
Kang asked whether she knows about this and stuff.. every question came out an answer saying that she didnt know.
The one question which was most obvious was " your phone suddenly had so much money you dont know? "
She dont know!!! LOLZ.

Swt. Then she started crying.. hoping sympathy and help from Aun Chik.
Kelian. oh well, these people cannot sympathize de la.



Right, thats about all for today. Sum up blog post! my gawd~ I know its very confusing / jumpy and not nice. But yeah.. tolerate with me for at least this month.. I'm really busy.. So sorry~

I wanted the title to be busy like ham. o.O
Ya.. Really busy like sot already..

These few days teachers started giving homework again despite the last few weeks I was free from it..
I finished it today already.. finally ~~ @@
I've been rushing with my moral project also.. as the teacher had just told us about the topic around last 2weeks.. I think he wants us to finish by the next two weeks.. Although the deadline is on June.
He is mad. =.=

I am rushing like mad here for my project.. and my homeworks.. and I have no time to study..
No time to practice piano too!! My gawd... I want to practice so much but I need to finish my project..
I feel very stress ==

Guess what I'm doing now besides blogging?
I'm helping my dad to do the commission for the workers..
which involves alot of counting @@.. (.....).... faint....
Very busy le!! zzz..

I dont even have time to blog..
I seldom on my msn nowadays also.. =(
Only can find me through skype or sms lo..

Have to continue my work... Ciaos =)

So So So sorry for the late updates..
I've been kinda busy.. and always out the past week..
My dad has been bringing me out alot last week and I always reach home late..
Not to mention I had moral project to do.. which I wanna finish it as soon as possible..@@

The teacher dont know how to teach at all ? or neither guide us..
I think the project that teacher gave us to copy is wrong ==
the format is just totally out..I rather really do the project myself than copying ==

and I have other task to do too..@@..... faint.

Last week we had our english week..
Even though all of us speaks and knows better english than malay I think we had done better for BM week instead of English week.
First is of course we didnt had much time to practice.. and the script was hard to form..
To actually make a script that would entertain people is a hard task..
Even though I'm not the one doing it but I think its difficult @@

well before that we had poems and choirs from the senior middle and singing also..
My didi sang ! and played guitar.. along with his friend and my teacher..
Well he did well, I like it =)

As for my teacher.. when he went up the stage he was like a different person o.O
playing the guitar and singing.. Is like he's not my teacher anymore..
and my friend was suggesting that this is how he chase girls xD..
He did a good job too ~! * applause *
I had video them all.. Just I havent uploaded the video @@..
Lol im so sorry! I really have no time..






As for our drama. It was ok.. Some said that they like this drama better.. Some said that they like the Konserto Terakhir better..
Ohya.. Our drama title was Cinderella.. Lolz.
It wasnt as hilarious..I think most of the people laugh because of our costumes..

and nonetheless we didnt get to sing! We were suppose to have a choir by Form 5's!
but unfortunately we gave all the time to the younger one for their performance and hence we have no more time left for our last performance. =(
I wasnt very satisfy because it was a hard chance that all of us are going to get together and sing~ aww.. =(

I will upload the videos next time.. =)

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My dad had been bringing me to midvalley alot the past week..
They had a big whale there!

Would update tomorrow. Promise. Had been a lil busy these days. Sorry @@.

I dont know what to do with it ==..
last year didnt do.. Our teacher keep delaying as we ask him for the project titles and what should we do..
until today..
now this teacher want us to finish up form4 and 5..
no guidance no nothing..

He just take some projects from other school photostat it and call us copy..
Sucks him , I refuse to copy.
I dont like to copy .. I rather do it myself though I'm clueless.
He never even guide us..
He give title.. Title which I also blur.. Aiya dont know la..

He somemore call us buy file.. do already put inside file.. No nid bind oh!!
o.o..
I doubt most of what he say.. I doubt everything he call us to do..
Im looking for another teahcer's help tomorrow..
Faint..

I wasted time sitting here looking on internet about what to do..
==..i feel .. pissed off.

Today alot people / things pissed me off =(
I pissed my ownself off too Lolz..
from I think around morning I didnt feel nice..
I just started to have a bad mood and like wanting to throw temper...@@..

From my friends, to the teachers , to myself.. everything is just pissing me off today..
I so wanted to scream and scold zzz..

I feel stress somehow == perhaps I'm just stressing myself out..
My teachers are giving me a hell of headache.. Especially my moral teacher..
Wanting us to rush form4 and 5 projects.. in what way ?
Copying. =.=
What the hell.. I rather write on my own..

So yeah , I have this two big projects undone..
And.. Its april already!
Like OMG. 7more months to SPM.
It might be far..but I think I heard someone said that we should start by now..
So yeah.. Im TRYING to manage my time.. Hopefully I would get some time to revise..

Tomorrow its english week.. A lil too fast..
Im doubtful of tomorrows events.. it might not be a sucess..
We hadnt had much time to rehearse and well most of us werent serious..
Im not good in acting ... I dont like to act ><. I'm just not talented in acting cause I'm scared and shy ==

!! Randomness .. I'm jumping topics...XD
My hair is LONG... but still not enough to the length I want ...
and its started to curl!! zOMG....... sigh..my front is long too..
I'm still considering whether to cut it or not.. If I cut it.. It'll curl max..
That's a disaster.. =X
I'm waiting for June.. where it'll be enough long then I'll straighten and cut it.. can I wait that long ? =(

These few days like don't know le..
I'm thinking alot.. I think I always do.. I think I'm always repeating stuffs in my blog!
Maybe because I never resolved anything from the beginning I start nagging about my problems and what I think always.
I'm worry.. yes.. I'm very worry for my studies..
@_@

I had alot in mind yesterday.. alot to blog about..
alot to say.. and I have totally forgotten all of it now ==
@@...sob.. Maybe, if I remembered.. I will post it.

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I went to Yaki Yaki Japanese Buffet Restaurant last Sunday.
The food there was ok, though it was a lil hot in there because we can have bbq in there..
So its a lil humid inside..
Uhm.. the environment its ok .. I think the only thing that makes me very happy was that I get to bbq a sweet potato.
LOLz.. I know I very childish xD...
But.. I just love to eat sweet potato!! I love it so much @@..

You're right there, but I cant seem to reach you.
So close, yet so far..

I dare not to dream..
Dare not to dream no more..
Afraid that I'll lose this dream... Afraid that I'll fall once more..

The feeling is so strong..
Like the first time I had this dream..
The first time encountering it..
The beginning of everything..

I want to let myself not to place my head up high ,
for high hopes brings big disappointment.
The feeling of this is possible, is overcoming the feeling of impossible.
But I cant let that happen..because of that, that whats make me fall every single time.

I wish to achieve this dream,
I wish to chase for it ,
I wish to be in it ,
I wish it would come true.

but yet there are abundence of circumstances standing at my path.
I've been waiting for this day.. but would it turn out another empty day again ?
Like it used to be?

I'm sitting here every night, looking up at the stars..waiting..
Hoping that maybe one day it would come true..
that I will not longer just sit here and hope,
instead enjoying it to the fullest..

I promise I wouldnt cry..
But I wont promise that I would stop a tearshed.

but after all.. its just all a dream, so far away out of reach.
A fantasy , a paradise..
a heaven which I always crave for, but never can I , be a part of it anymore.

I'll just, have to wait ..
or try.

This aint random crap, this is something I just thought of wanting to say.. Somehow related to me but I dont know how to express.. Neither do I know how to use any fancy english..
So yeah.. =)

Yew~Ca

one from ru's blog. Saling mengambil gambar o.O

I know I'm so late to update this @@..
I've recovered!!
My fever is officially gone along with my soar throat.. whats left is my cough and a wee bit of flu..
Last Friday was my Chemi teacher's last day of school..
So we had a farewell party for her.. and sadly! I cannot eat any of those food ordered because of my soar throat! =(

We planned to order pizza and mcd on that day..
But we cant get throught mcd!! .. omg == mcD dont wanna do business!!

Karthi bought a cake.. which is.. I dont think its nice.. I think eating it fresh at secret recipe is nicer o.O.. I think because it melted abit.. so yea.. @@..

There was one particular time around 12+ 1 where the sun is scorching hot I felt very very uncomfortable that day..
I was having PMS and the freaking pain that it brought me making me having the feeling of nausea.. and I was having fever nonetheless feeling very cold even though I was outside of my class in the hot sun. o.O
That was the ever worst part ever.. @@
Then the fever subside and I slept a lil while.. I was ok after that..

Not much to say.. We just celebrated with our teacher.. then took some photos and went home xD.

I dont know what to post about.. My camera got alot of pictures O.o............

Hui Xsin keep snapping and snapping o.O
post some other time =p

Cikgu Azlia~

Too yummy it seems o.O

I cannot eat!


^^

Its been a long time since I last fall sick..
All of a sudden now I'm sick to the max..
I never had fall sick until that I'm in this condition..

I feel very very very tired..
The fever wont go away.. It comes back again after it has been gone for awhile..
I keep sneezing and sneezing.. Non stop and the mucus just cant stop flowing out o.O
The flu wont go away neither..
My throat is pain and because I cant breathe with my nose I use my mouth to breath when I sleep.
It makes it een more painful .. zz

When will it go away ? =(

Today my parents call me not to go to school..
But after considering it for a long time.. I wanted to go.. because I had bio class and have add maths test today..
So I did go.. But I was feeling weary max..
I wasnt feeling well at all.. Tired..

During Sej class.. I was shivering =.=
My class too cold le.. zz...
When doing my addmaths test I kept sneezing =.=

I went back right after my test.. I beh tahan stay at school anymore.
I slept alot.. and now Im still not feeling alright.. Im still having fever..
I dont dare go bath T.T Cold......

Why do I have to fall sick in this few days..
Today bio and add maths test.
yesterday rehearsel for english week..
tomorrow my chemi teacher is leaving and we are making a farewell party for her..
How can I not go school ?!

I wanted to go out on saturday too =(
and I dont think I can now.
Next week we have a trip to TPM.
Next next week sinyin's school got program.
Haiz.

It started from yesterday morning where I woke up with a discomfort in my throat.
I thought perhaps it was phlegm causing it so I did not care.
Later on I started coughing and coughing and coughing away.
When I was home I felt that I would have fever by the night.
But I thought that it was lucky that I didnt have a soar throat which would bring hell to me because of the pain.
I had fever in the night.. so I didn't have a good sleep.. I was waking up from time to time and when my fever had gone I sweated which made me even more uncomfortable.
I wanted to take my blanket away because I felt hot but then again I dont want myself to get cold again. @@

Unfortunately, I woke up with a soar throat today and it got worse=.=
I felt lertagic and and my eyes were closing. A lil burning sensation because of my fever.
I finish 2 bottles of 1000ml of water today =.=
and I'm feeling the pain in my throat.. pain and dehydrated max.
I was like freezing max when I was at school.. adding on the cold aircond I have in class.. @@

Now, I'm still having fever and feeling the chill..
I'm sitting in my computer room without a fan on.
and I'm not sweating. I'm tired. T.T

What more?
Tomorrow got add maths test by my teacher and I have to do bio essay homeworks..
Sigh~