Youth camp 2008!
"Wednesday, December 31, 2008" • 3:14 PM writes:
Im still super duper tired now after back from camp .. so im a lil bit lazy to blog xD
I slept the whole day yesterday from the bus to office to home o.o
I didnt take much photos this camp. sad.
Just no mood to camwhore I guess o.O
perhaps lazy =)
Day 1
Reached church about 1+pm and took off by 2pm.
We form4 girls sat in bus3 with all the intruments while the guys sat in bus 2 ..some in cars.
Why do we always get separated? =(
My bus xD
zzz ohwell anyway .. the bus trip was rather boring for me.. haha sorta ? because I just sat there.. I didnt feel like talking... o.o
the sea!
Anyways~ Reached there about 4pm and headed to our room! 306 is the number.
Roomates : Cass, Zanne, Arwyn, Cherie and Beatrice.
Wow I love the hotel xD
its like sorta like a house.. we had a balcony..2rooms..3toilets.. one living room... not bad right? hahaha
front door?
arwyn and beatrice's room.
the balcony O.o
balcony~
the view from my balcony o.o
the table in the balcony o.O
the living room.
my room!
the corridor.
syok sendiri xD
my nametag T_T.. super duper destroy by josiah.. He took mine and didnt wanted to return to me till the last day at camp zzzz...
At that time only me and zanne was in the room so we were like syok sendiri and was like so hyper xD..
our neighbour right opposite us, 308 stays abigail, ginny,chermaine,claudia, and yi li and amanda.
Then we went down for briefing and for dinner.
The dinner was ok ? but the place had alot of flies!!
We enjoyed sunset everyday when dinner hahaha .. our dining place face the sea =)
We celebrated Grace's birthday too!
tadah!
We had out 1st session.. conducted by pastor elijah.. He looks rather young O.O
the hall.
from church of praise ipoh. And after the sermon I went for altar call... I cried O.O
seriously felt the presence of God.
But I didnt slaint though o.o
Then we back to room... we all chatted ahwhile then about 1+ they went back.
instant porridge. zomg right.
chatting xD
Left me zanne and cherie chatting till about 230 am xD
Day 2.
woke up 730 am.. bath and went to breakfast.
The breakfast was nice....we had nasi lemak, cereals, porridge, mee, egg, bread, sausage, baked beans.
Went to sessions.. went to lunch.. I didnt go out for the altar call this time. I just didnt had the feel. I cant feel anything @@..then we got the heart to heart forum thing
We asked all kinds of questions.. really.. all kind o.o
Then we had free time!
I went to the beach.. Just wanting to feel the breeze and cool myself out actually..
Listening to the waves and taking pictures while the others were swimming at the sea.
I dont swim and Im afraid of the water T_T
dirty sand in pd.
the sea =)
Daniel Quah keep wanting to pull me down !!! zomg!
Then josiah keep forcing me to go =.=
" go la go la y0u kenot miss this go la go la go la "
= =
I had to hold cher's and ginny's hand to walk ... SCARED!
Keep kena wave.. i feel the saltyness..zomg scary lo..
I nearly drop inside .. lucky i can stand in the sea T_T
they keep wanna pull me deeper T_T
after that went back to clean up.. I was filled with sand @_@
zomg? Then had dinner.. and went for the night session.
I went out to the altar call.. but I still didnt feel anything.. I kept wondering why why why
I was really....disappointed.
Then i sat down with Claudia they all... and they started to pray for me..
Something which I dont expect, I started to cry when they all pray for me.
Just .. my friends praying for me.. and God hit me real hard .. I cry and cry and cry.
We went back to our rooms later.. chatted.. and about 1+ they left except chermaine...
Grace had to go back because she wasnt feeling well.. so the form1's needa leader in their room..
and so cherie had to take grace's place.
We talked about not feeling anything in this camp.. but beatrice said one thing that was really meaningful..
Seek not the manifestation of the Holy Spirit.
Then I understood why already. =)
We chat chat chat until 3+ and we set our own alarms. xD
we created out own alarms too.
We had to wake up at 5am the next morning.
5alarms set xD
Day 3.
So fast its already the last day!
we all woke up at 5am... 5+ actually =.=
everyone's phone was ringing like siao..especially our own created alarm LOL..
everyone was like super duper tired ... and we went to the beach searching for sunrise with the guys xD
form4 cg!! We sat in the beach..fellowshipping.. until it started to rain =( or else it would be nice..
went back to room.. I slept awhile.. then went to breakfast..
session .. I went to the altar call again.. didnt cry.. but I just kept continuing to talk to God..
I did slaint though.. but I was happy..
I know that I had been set free =)
had photo session too =)
went lunch... then the leaders were praying inside the ballroom..until 3pm. The next activity we were having was delayed.
Anyhow the next actiavity is the battle.. which was...really violent ! T_T till my slippers were broken and my both my feet blue black.
I started coughing and flu after the game -.-
Then free time.. I went to the beach again.. form4 cg was planning to burry andrew in the sand and have make up on him xD
the plan was sucessful! I dont have the photos.. sorry T_T
didnt bring my phone to the beach..
Then I just stand there and feel the breeze and the wave.. and chatted with joshua lu =)
the josiah and virginie came o.O
chatted awhile than had to go back to hotel to bath... and session.
the last nights worship is nice.. but I still feel not enough! I wan more more more! xD
went altar call again ? No tears .. just smile =)
slaint.. Pastor elijah prayed for me this time.
Went back to room.. chatted.. they went back early this time.. and me cher zanne beat and cass chatted until halfway i receive a phone call. =.=
and chatted till 4am =.=
when I went back to the room everyone slept already and I had no place ! TT
hahaha so I had to sleeop in the living room.
Day 4. Last day.
Sad! is the last day already. I woke up at 820am! Zomg so super late.
was so freaking tired.. everyone was tired in that day.. Most of us was late for breakfast.
during session everyone was sleepy also =x
I didnt go out this time.. I couldnt concentrate praying.. i fell asleep LOL.
We had photo session too. again xD
Then later all of us were waiting outside of the ballroom feeling the breeze and taking photos xD.
Had to go back already... i slept the entire way home.
It was raining.
Overall... I really want to channel my love to God..
I wanna love God with all my mind, with all my heart , with all my soul and with all my strength.
I wanna love God so much ... and be a changed person.
I pray that my passion and the fire wont be out.. but I wanna be on fire for Him for the rest of my life !
and from now on I wanna really put God 1st in everything. =)
I know ... I had been set free from my emo and dullness.. I wanna make a difference.
Shine for God! Amen!!
outside the hall. The wind was blowing so hard! Bad hair day for us xD
form4 ! so orange right? xD
I know I smile very weirdly in this photo o.O
cass, zanne, me. XD
camwhore.. beat, cass,zanne, me. =)
As the music fades..
I will try to let our love fade too~*
~
♥~EriCa~♥
Christmas 2008~*
"" • 12:19 PM writes:
My internet is back already!
and Im back from camp too!
Sorry for the late post about christmas @@...
Im still using my laptop to upload photos to blog.. So im lil lazy to put copyright at my photos =X
Wahahah next time la =)
Anyway.. On Christmas day... It's consider the
weirdest Christmas ever? Alot things happen that day @@..
At first the plan is in the afternoon me, kok leong, tracy, ban kok, suzanne go shopping around kl~
Then on christmas eve, kok leong called up and say we maybe meeting up with yc.
That made me emo a lil while = = because I dont wanna see him ~~~~ =X
So I smsed man xuan asking her whether is she going to kl wth yc.. she said no.. so I say ok.
Ok so on christmas eve , sinyin was in my house to overnight ! xD
we spend christmas together for the first time ! xD.. and it was the most funniest =.=
She slept before me.. then when i was asleep.. she woke up bugging me to accompany her to toilet downstairs.
Around 3~4am
Yin : I want go to toilet
Ca : Tomorrow only go la
Yin : its tomorrow already.
Ca : * opens door* go down urself..
Yin : follow meeee
Ca : no * walks back to bed *
Hahahahaha I so bad right xD
Then she came back and bugged me again T^T
Yin : Im hungry~!!!
And the whole night she bugged me until morning .......I had a bad night christmas sleep =(
hahaha then the next morning we went breakfast / lunch with my parents at xenri.
After that I dropped off yin at midvalley and headed to pavilion.
see our tired face =X
When I reached pavilion , I met with suzanne.. then man xuan smsed me..
She said " where are you oh? Im in sgwang. =) "
So I called her and said I will look for her when I walked to sgwang.
Met up with ban kok later at pavilion and we 3 walked together to sgwang.
After reaching we waited for man xuan.
She's.............................................cute.
LOL.. she's at the height of sinyin.. about 150cm ? tanned like me.. eyes big and super skinny O.O
with short hair. Super cute xD
But as like yc say to me she's super leng .. so much more leng than me...? Now I see her in real life.. If really want compare.. She and me.. can say at the same level lo. Like seriously saying haha..
Oh well she told me that yc dont know she came. Then I say ok la.. you follow me , we go meet up with them =)
Leong, tracy, and yc were at mcdonalds.
Then when we reached mcd.. man xuan suddenly like.. dont want go la....
I say why... you also reached d le..
then when we walked to where they sat.. yc gave a cold emoless face.......like the one he used to show me. = =
I tapped on his back and say " look behind "
he just look at man xuan with a really emoless face. I was like what the hell.
Then man xuan said that she wanted to go shopping herself.
I offer her to walk with us just gitls she rejected o.O
Then I ask yc.. are you ok ?
He just glance at me awhile then look away.. = =
Then I dont care I went shopping with zanne and tracy while leong and ban kok stayed back with yc.
I smsed man xuan and ask her are you ok ?
then she smsed me saying that she quarrel with her mum until they nearly " fan min" only she can come...just to get this reaction from yc.
She said that she smsed me because she cant contact yc..
So I forward this message to leong to let yc see o.O
Ok bla bla skipped everything.. In the end man xuan was alone at timesquare.
And me, I bought nothing that day T^T
Couldnt find anything I wanted ~~
Then we met up leong and ban kok at gasoline.
Yc went to find man xuan already.
At 1st I was very pissed off with yc's attitude.
But then leong said I mistaken.
Man xuan didnt tell yc she was going to sgwang... At 3pm she smsed yc telling him that she just woke up o.O
actually today yc before meeting with us, he went out with his forum friend valerie and angel.
Angle already told yc about man xuan coming to sgwang today.
Just yc didnt know how to ask man xuan.
Another complicated situation right? Lols..
Man xuan is like... she dont have any best friend lo... ?
Her best friend always betray her .. and there are other things that happen that day.. which Im cant say it here in public =)
Just that day it made me a lil emo.. thinking why yc wanna go through all these o.O
Ok after that zanne had to rush back to pavilion so I have to pei her lo..
and what so unlucky is was raining very heavily outside!!! and pavilion is far from sgwang! zomg?!
We had to buy an umbrella in the end.... and it was lucky that i brought my big jacket that day.. So I wasnt really that wet.. But my jacket was T_T
While waiting for my parents to reach I was sitting with zanne's family while they were having dinner.
Then I met up with ben and told him the story that happen today xD
then I met up with my family and relatives at athena restaurant.
Had dinner there than cabut to my aunt's house.
My relatives all were chatting whole me and my cousin playing wii xD.
Nitendo wii is fun! not bad =)
went back home about 2am =X hahah
I sit facing the mirror o.O xD
family xD
tomato soup! xD yum!!
starter~* prawns and salmon =)
cod fish ~~ main course.
turkey~ My dad's main course~
My desert! Ice cream + pear? haha
My aunt and mum ~ ^^
daddy and mummy! sweet!
mummy and me ~! =)
family !
camwhore at pavilion's toilet xD hahahhah =X
End *
As the music fades..
I will try to let our love fade too~*
~
♥~EriCa~♥
Gone to camp~*
"Saturday, December 27, 2008" • 1:31 AM writes:
wont update from 27th~30th dec.
Gone to youth camp!!
Christmas n camp update will b on 31dec if my internet is can be fixed when im back in kl.
Sorry guys =)
and merry christmas!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Super duper lot photo updates coming up on 31th and new year~~!! woohoo~!
Ciao~
As the music fades..
I will try to let our love fade too~*
~
♥~EriCa~♥
X internet
"Thursday, December 25, 2008" • 9:13 PM writes:
my internet kena water and got kaboom !
so probably wont online n blog ><
try to update tmr !
goin campt on 27th to 30th !
Ciao !
As the music fades..
I will try to let our love fade too~*
~
♥~EriCa~♥
21.12.08 ~* Baptism x Cg celebration
"Monday, December 22, 2008" • 3:00 PM writes:
I got baptized yesterday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!=DNot to mention
IM SICK ALREADY ALSO.Urg.. I think I know why la.. Yesterday I catch abit of cold when I got baptized.. adding on the the stupid hot and rainy weather yesterday =.=
It was hot and humid making me so moodless to play... then it started to rain and cooled. What the crap man..
In addition I didnt drink much water and lack sleep past week.
Stupid.
Sick with flu and fever and soar throat. I hate it.. Somemore 2days will be christmas.
Please let me get well before christmas comes =(
I dont wanna be sick on christmas and camp T^T
Ok yesterday was history for my church xD
70 people got baptized yesterday! Including 20members of youth! wow?!half of the youth members who got baptized are all form4s'!! xD
yesterday was like a big
THING happening LOL..
it was so so so crowded and hot outside.. with people video-ing..and alot taking photographs..
Bands singing.. omigosh lo
We were the most last ones to get baptized.. I was really really nervous when it was going to be my turn.
Daddy got ready with the camera right in front and mummy and popo had front seats O.O
The pool thing was deep wei! I didnt expect it to be that deep O.O
lucky beatrice as the one to help me baptize.. Yoohoo~~~~ Hahaha
I choked abit @@
After that we had out cg celebration to appreciate our leaders xD..
It was also wen qi's birthday..Broke up into cg's and had cake =X
Celebrating wen qi'w birthday and Cherie's farewell to kid's kingdom o.o
ok this was before baptism.
Then later we had a trial run game.. after that. baptism.
After baptism.. we took our foods to the field just opposite out church.
We got spag , mihun, hot dogs and drinks.
After eating we had games and punishment..................for leaders =D
Punishment = drink "juices" like :
curry powder + apple cider
soy sauce
chili + coke
^^
We had games like..
3legged race
dress us in newspaper
piggy back
twister
who am I
Monkey
Bla =X All we won.. except one round we lost and had to drink the punishment..
Lucky mine didnt taste bad =X
Ok .. it was raining..
Night we had dinner at a nearby steamboat.
And bla bla..
wahahhaa im so not in the mood to blog.
Im so freaking sick.
T^T.. sorry..
Photos below. No caption yeah.
And ohyeah. I remind all of you here.. i didnt upload everything in my blog.. get your pictures from my friendster album ok ? =)
www.friendster.com/daosabao
As the music fades..
I will try to let our love fade too~*
~
♥~EriCa~♥
200th post.
"" • 12:47 PM writes:
Ok.. im not really in the mood to post but just felt the urge to update it
MY 200th post!I went to KL last saturday.. was wallking from federal hotel to sgwang.. after sgwang to pavilion for lunch T^T
Daddy went to sgwang to get his pants and while waiting for him.. me and my mum went hunting for boots =X
I went hunting for it since last weeks.. couldnt find boots without super tall heels =.=
Fyi, im no fan of heels. Hahahahaha
Luckily! There was new stock! I found two pairs of boots without heels.. =X
Oe leather one ....cloth I dont know what is it called..
Basically I didnt like the leather much.. But the " cloth " one. well.. it didnt really look nice on me..
As for the leather one it makes me look... cool ? hahaha
Show ya guys the pic next time.. forgot to snap..
I couldnt shop long .. my dad was rushing us T_T
I had to walk from sgwang to pavilion and back ........................=(
and the freaking sun that day was scorching hot! It nearly gave me heat stroke ~ =(
at pavilion, as usual... my parents brought me to this mediterannean restaurant name ATHENA.
I tell you, every food there is veryyyyyyyyy nice!!
3 of us got set lunch.. *cheaper* xD
I saw santa there too!!! =X
Below are random pics =X
Really.. not in the mood to post.. I posting two post today... this was suppose to be post up the day before yesterday.. But i was really tired @@...
Somehow.. I think I dress kinda lala-style? xD I love my shoes =X
Pavilions big christmas tree.. Daddy say it looks like a temple. His comments : its sucks. LOL
why must it be yellow not red ? @@
I like it xD
candid santa =X
The view outside my office.. You see the long row of people? they are form the church down the street in serdang.. These are the church members... Singing merry christmas all the way xD cool right?
My aunt make tong yun! Peanuts in it O.O yum~
random snapshot =X
Merry christmas!
As the music fades..
I will try to let our love fade too~*
~
♥~EriCa~♥
Photos.
"Sunday, December 21, 2008" • 11:17 PM writes:
Hey ~!
Guys and girls from the cg " celebration" today xD
I just reached home and is uploading the photos to my friendster album ...
UPLOADING OK.. so yea you guys have to wait..
Its here
www.friendster.com/daosabaoPosts updates tomorrow!
Im not free now @@
ciaoo~~~~~~~~~
As the music fades..
I will try to let our love fade too~*
~
♥~EriCa~♥
Move on ~*
"Friday, December 19, 2008" • 8:48 PM writes:
Its my 199th post.
IM CELEBRATING MY 200th post later =DDDDDDDDD LOLz Lame. =p
Erm.. I can officially tell all of you
Im fine.. already. =)
Like seriously ~~
Well.. two nights ago.. I was lying on my bed thinking..
Thinking about all our stuff.. Thinking about him and her..
I feel the soury feeling ^^
and then I fell asleep. Hahaha.
Th next morning.. Whenever I was alone .. I would think about it.. Thought about everything.
Then well.. I made a decision.. To lock up our memories..
At first I thought to write everything down in a book and lock it away..
But later on I feel there's no need for it.. I'll just lock it away in my heart itself.
Lock it and tell myself its the past ~ =)Its a weird, angry,funny,sweet,romantic? memory about me and yc..
and about my sorta 1st love.. SORTA ok? xD
and everything =)
yesterday Yc and Her went out again o.O
Yea at first I feel a lil hurt and jealous.. But slowly somehow I felt nothing.
I just felt whats not yours is not yours.
And well.. I think I can finally let go and adapt single life.
At the starting period I was always so not used to not smsing.
I kept finding people to sms me.. just to keep me busy I guess..
I start to know that well.. I need to try to adapt a more independent life? ^^
One miracle
, I FORGOT TO BRING MY PHONE OUT TODAY.LOL.. it might not be a miracle to you, but its a miracle to me xD
Because I sms yc 24hours.. Sort of..and I'll just never leave my phone somewhere..
I will hold it wherever I go just so that I can sms him =X!!!!!!
So its like.. today I went out to kl without my phones... absolutely no communication with friends today.. and I feel fine.
I dont miss yc neither =)I feel happy somehow for them.. so sweet.. that yc has found the one he likes.
Yea I think I had said this before but..
I can be really sure this time.. that Im fine.Im ready to face yc next year at school hahahhahahhaa
Surely I wont fall again or emo.. well because.. the previous time we broke up I try not to think about him.
After seeing him at school and listened to his voice on phone I felt nostalgic.
Somehow before I actually chose to lock away our memories.. I really concentrate very much on thinking everything about him.
His voice,hug, looks..everything.
I overcome it..with the help of God ! =D
what has past is past. I did well, have a great ending I guess.
Both parties agreed. Ngeh~~~~~~ =p
For once I felt there is no need for sms, no need companion, no need couple stuff.. and I dont miss yc. xD I feel that he has his own life now.Yeaman though its such a waste that me and his family members already knew each other and was quite stable dy. xD
I guess well.. what a story right?
At least, Im not like others.. Desperate siao.. or you know,. block and delete them in msn.. delete their contact number, tear off photos, throw what he gives. Hahahahhaa
To be honest , I just deleted his messages and the pictures of me and him in my PHONE.
My computer still has it.. just for memories xD.. even me with Kim Hon ( as some of you know) also still here xD..
Baptism is tomorrow! So yeah... new life!
And 2009... New new new new new new life. LOL
And hey! Lolz..
ah ben is backkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk!!!!!Darn it xD i miss him like siao LOL... ok please do not misunderstand me..
Just like he's my best friend, minesweeper enemy, and the friend which I also find to chat one . =X
So I was like going to text him that I miss him.. but then didnt because I thought he wasnt back.
I left my msn on yesterday night then I went out.
When I came back I saw him msn me
" tadaima " which means Im back.
I was...........................
so...........................
so..............................
so
so
so
so
so
FREAKING OVERWHELME LOL!The first thing I did was call him up and
shouted " ah ben you're backk!!!!!! " LOls man I siao right? I kept laughing somemore.. Damn happy lo like seirously.
I also dont know why~ =p
maybe because is my close friend? even sinyin.. I do that to her....quite too often =X
UPDATESOS PHOTOS LATERRRRR...~~~~~~No cable now.. Sorry.. I know my blog has been filled by millions of words ..
So damn boring right ? =X
As the music fades..
I will try to let our love fade too~*
~
♥~EriCa~♥
The awkwardness~*
"" • 5:55 PM writes:
I settle down.. Think for the night.. Thought about it this morning..
Im slowly.. slowly... slowly to understand that.. whats not yours is not yours..
I seen too many possibilities that will happen..
Such as
- I will take years to let go
- I will accept people unneccesarily just to forget
- I would probably hurt people
- I would let go fast
- I will find one better soon
- I will stay single
- Yc come back and find me * most probably impossible *
- Mood swings too oftenly
and so on I guess? There is just too much of possibilities that will happen.. and I wonder which would struck me.
Oh well.. After thinking .. alone..
Yes although when I thought of them.. Thought of how yc treat her so good... treat me so different.. thought of they always go gaigai together...
I will feel jealous and hurt..
There is this soury feeling in my heart. or maybe like got kmives stabbing in it XD..
Haha anyways I slowly also learn that.. Well.. both of us not ngam lar..
Though I really like him alot..
Still la I know there are alot of feelings in me still..
There are still residues of " wanting him bacK " and " liking him"
I hope it will subside soon enough ... If it dosent, the emo mode will cloud me for sometime..
Sometimes I feel that I need a bf.. Sometimes I feel no..
I think Im still a lil bit confused with what I want.. I think probably..after this sunday I would be fine?
I will be baptize this sunday!! woo hooo! XD
and there is christmas outings with kok leong and they all.. after that is..
CAMP CAMP CAMP!
2009 resolution? Seriously.. Start a new life.
I seriously ned to get over it.. Although is easy said hard to achieve..But yeah..
Im gonna try..
Maybe thinking less will do.
Ok I know I crapping~.... let me crap more.. I shall feel better =X!!!
Yc.. I will miss you~ o.O
Im trying to lock our memories aside.. So I'll start a new life and not pulled back by the past.
I guess he found the one he likes.. Well..Lets see what happen in the future la..
I need like super 100% support from friends and family xD just to pei me chat..
You cant keep me lonely..
And thank you Kok leong for always pei-ing me like gila hahahaha..
I miss ben T.T
I hope the soury feeling in me fades sooner.. and faster.
I wanna have more fun to forget.. definitely.. I wish school would reopen faster..
Although I would see him but yeah.. At least im not left alone staring at my computer ==~
The awkward feeling of being single?
Or the exciting feeling of a new life?
I wonder.. But I still somehow wish to go back..
Even though everyone was trying to tell me it was shit and I still step on it till today.
Like how wah lung phrase it, Now ure cleaning off the thick stain .
I somehow.. Somehow.. Dont like how is everything now.
I wish either time goes back or time passes even faster.
Or I'll just jump to the future and look back how stupid I am now. =X
erm.. ok.. blog later.. Gtg T^T
As the music fades..
I will try to let our love fade too~*
~
♥~EriCa~♥
what title should I put?
"Thursday, December 18, 2008" • 12:39 PM writes:
Aiks.. Really really tired these days..
Like Im rushing here and there.. here and there..
My housing area is not safe.. There had been alot of robberies and stuffs..So my parents is like super worry bout me... I always stay home alone.
For quite sometime already la..
I like staying at home because I get to do my own things.. Get to wake up anytime I want..
nobody kacau... If I emo I cry how loud also no one care xD
I love that place xD
So now.. because of that .. my parents want me to go to their office everyday
everyday everyday everyday everyday everydaywhat the crap T.T
so means I have to wake up like
7am everyday.. AGAIN - -what a holiday ah~
and somemore I have to sleep in my parents room.. for safety..
I dont like their room. Hot.. humid..crampy..
My room is rather empty and cool.
And what more if I have piano lessons. by 4pm + i have to pack and go home.. after piano lesson I have to come office again just to wait my mum finish her work and then head back home..
Lol..
my eating time disordered. Sorta
Cause my parents are just so busy rushing up and down also... I see them also @@
Been helping a lil here for them..
No workers here in the office cept me and my aunt?
Dad wanna cut expenses and workers..
I can definitely feel the economy crisis now.Lols.. I wanted a phone..for my final exam..result =X
I wanted a vaio laptop for christmas...
I want a new spec and I want to straigeten my hair..
But now its like.. I dont dare to ask my parents for it.. I know they are stressing out because of the drops in the business.. So the two
BIG things in my list are cancelled xD
Maybe when things get better only I'll ask for it..
Now I think I just want a new spec.. and straigthen my hair =p
Anyways... My parents ar.. They busy until they have no christmas mood..
Adding on , Im not at home, no one is there to put up my christmas tree.. So my house is like.. no christmas mood.
I consider this year's christmas is the worse..
Because even its just around the corner.. Streets are still empty.. Not crowded as always..
Not much decorations.. Just no so festive-like.
Everyone is facing the BIG prob now.. M O N E YAiks.. Can consider me, my parents are.. super tired?
Im mentally stress.. now.. physicallly stress...
Not that I dont want to sleep early..
We finish work yesterday night at 11pm. Had dinner and went back home around 12.
Bath and everything already 1am. Then if my alarm rings at the middle of the night we wake up.
Need to be alert of any breaking ins.Then 7am wake again.
Beh tahan lo.
Im already.. Still emo-ing about it.
I still miss him. Really cant stand.. I love him too much that time.
Now its changing to like... when I type the word love I feel awkward..
I hope this feelings and everything goes away faster.
Mentally stress yet physically also.My parents too.
Dont know how la.
Only God can help @@
U see my super exhausted face? and super dark eye bags?
Strictly original.
Im using my laptop to online these days at office..
and my laptop contains no phot editor.
I used to have my blog name stamp of the photos I upload right?
But you see ny recent post photos all dont have de..
Sad man T.T
Yea btw.. Its my new hair .
As the music fades..
I will try to let our love fade too~*
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♥~EriCa~♥
hair.... @@
"Wednesday, December 17, 2008" • 4:50 PM writes:
My hair... Used to be like this.. this is I think.. 1week ago..........
Thick.. Long... Long...Black.. Straight...
Till one day..Yc bring me... to this sglong salon.........and...............
I had a bad feeling of it somehow... But I didnt dare to say.....so..
I tell the aunty.. Dont want short dont want thin.
She no cut short she cut thin.
The aunty cut my hair and it turn out like THIS
Left side.
right side.
I do have the front face photo snapped... but its in my phone and I dont have a usb cable now.
So yeah would post it up next time.... anyway.......
CACATED RIGHT?! Now is like curly, thin , and short. WTH!!
Lucky the bottom part still long so I dont look super cacated. Sobs lo!!
I SWEAR NEVER TO CUT LAYER AGAIN!
As the music fades..
I will try to let our love fade too~*
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♥~EriCa~♥
help..
"Tuesday, December 16, 2008" • 10:45 PM writes:
help...
Haiz... I dont know la.. Im everyday repeating what I say..
I really... very san fu..
Very very san fu..
yc changed 100% le..
He trea the girl damn good..
He treat me like trash.
What do I feel ?
I feel damn dulan.
I feel damn em song..
I feel why ?
Yc thinks I got mental problem..
I tell myself to be happy.. But within me im sad.
I tell myself I dun miss him.. But the feeling is there.
I tell myself I have to forget him.. But the feeling of loving him is still within me..
Yc dont know.. He really dont know what he had to me..
How much hurt had this cause me.. how much impact has this cause me..
I am seriously very deeply hurted.
Strong? Strong.. I tell myself to be strong..
But Im weak and I try to be strong but its hard..
Im tired... Im so tired of all these..
He's happy-ing there and me?
Having to carry all these... I question, why this have to happen to me.
Why must I be the one trash to him.. then when other people can get his good side..
I still freaking eeking love him.
How come I cannot be the one to get his love.
I feel I hate him.
but haiz.. Dont know la.. I damn confused.. really
Feelings damn mixed up.
I hate everything I hate it.
Why must like that?
Why~~~!~~~~!!~~~~!!!~~~~
Im crying so loud inside.. and its like no one hears.
God.......... I wish I can leave earth and see God now
I will definetily be happier =X
But yeah... I think I really really need to go camp..
I cant find alone time with God.. Because my parents dont want me to be alone..
I hate yc
I hate why ust everything be like this.
I hate how I feel now.
I hate..
I want to be happy... I dont want to be confused
I dont want to be stuck on mixed emotions.
I want clear thinking.
I seriously dont know what I want.
Help?
As the music fades..
I will try to let our love fade too~*
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♥~EriCa~♥
Not used to it.
"" • 3:12 PM writes:
Do you find my blog boring?
Everyday
love love love,emo, emo, emo,words , words, and WORDS!Ok I would post up some photos later =)
photos of my " new " hair..
=(!
My hair used to be long..and thick back jor a lil..
Because everytime I got cut hair people help me layer till my hair look so thin =.=
That day yc go bring me cut hair.. the aunty help me cut LAYER AGAIN.
SO yea it sucks.. T.T thin again..
Lucky bottom part still long or else I look...weird.
Right anyway back to the topic..
I dont know..
My emotions are still very unstable and mixed up.Sorta confused also?
Sometimes I will be happy then suddenly I go emo.
I still havent got used to being single.
Its been almost 2years.. If not counting the few months single... almost 3years?
I always had been waking up knowing that I have a dear .. knowing that Im not single..
and knowing that.. I will sms him later.. and stuff.. like being love..
Just couple feeling la..
Now I wake up... feeling very awkward.. Like.. Im single..
Yc is not my bf.. I wont sms him..
I got no one to lao gai d o.O
I dont know how to descibe to you couple and single feeling..
Just when you couple you'll be like in your own world with your partner..Whereas when now Im single Im like free in a big big place..Sometimes I will be very angry of yc and feeling jealous..
There will be like angry of him why he want treat me why like this but other so good..
Jealous of the grirl that he got him I dont.
I miss him. I still love him.
I miss the times I had with him....It was like so stable dy..cose both our parents know..
I miss the cuddling , the lao gai-ing.. the deh-ing.. LolX =X
Yes ac I understand that I shouldnt go
" i love him only "I wont but in the mean time I still have feelings for him.
I dont know.. I still need time.. Sometime flashbacks would just suddenly come then I go emo.
Sometimes I would just feel he's not mine anymore I cant care... I dont have to care.
Mixed up feelings like - dont care , and miss mixed together mixed up.
Making me confused.. Sometimes sad sometimes happy.
Im repeating what Im saying am I ?
At first he was still willing to be with me.. just to give me time to forget..
But once he saw that girl he totally change le..
Ahhhhhhhhh~ I dont know...
Just always 'why' comes into my mind.
I why alot of things..
Why this happens, why he is like that , why this and that.
But I dont think I can get every answer for every question.
I think I lost my appetite that time.. I didnt eat much since the day he say break, and we got together again.. and break.
I seriously did lost my appetite.. I see food I dont eat. Adding on I got food poisoning for 3days..
And also lack of sleep for sometime..
Everyone that sees me asks me did I lose weight?
I perhaps so. I lost weight from 44kg to 40kg I think. Even more underweight.
And I look so dull and exhausted.
My family keep ask me what happen to me.. why I look so pale and tired.
I really wonder what happen to me o.O
Everyone call me dont think so much.
But well I think that dosent works on me.
People usually do things to forget and not think.
But me, if I do things and keep myself busy but I can still feel something bothering me.
And because I have no time to think of it I get so furstrated.
I prefer having a time to settle down and think properly.
I cant dont think, because thoughts just come suddenly and I cant control it
Its a big part of my memories... So big that I wonder how and when will I let go.
I hope I will meet more new friends or soemthing
Mayb more new students in SSM which is impossible =X
But yeah... Now is like not much people to talk to me.. I just feel so sien.
Lolx.
You know whats my first wish for christmas that I hope God can present it ?
My wishlist :
1st.
TO BE HAPPY AGAIN.I wanna be happy.. I cant stay in this dullness ... Ive been here for sometime already...
I need...to find joy once more... Real joy that I once had when I was in camp =)
Bla................ So many emo posts these days..
and its still continuing hehs.
Im trying to be strong..trying to overcome..
Yet its so tiring..
I got so used to being a couple..I miss it. I miss it. I miss it.
Where is my dear?
As the music fades..
I will try to let our love fade too~*
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♥~EriCa~♥
Two Messages.
"Sunday, December 14, 2008" • 10:35 PM writes:
I know its long.. please read =)Today I sorta forget to bring zanne's present again and my baptism homework..
shit shit shit shit shit @@
Ok so I might be passing it up tomorrow...
I smsed Claudia..I asked her whether she can help me tell the office that I will be passing it up tomorrow..
Ok to make the story short..
I ended pur convo
" oh. I oso back d. Nvm "something like that.. Then she sent me this message..
" Hey, you know, yesterday when I was praying, God showed me a lot of things about you. Suddenly, he told me that He loves you so much, that regardless all things, whether you are sad or happy, He would always extend His arms and carry you in His bosom. Erica, God says He loves you, and I can see that you are going to run towards the direction of the Lord, and cast all thins unto Him. He really moved me to tell you this. So dont be discourage. Treat God as your bestest friend, through Him, He will strenghten you. "Next msg..
" Haha , you dont m ind if I read your blog right? Actually, the first time I read your blog, I knew he would cheat on you. I just knew. But I dont dare to tell you at that time. Seriously, yesterday when I pray, God really urge me to lay hands for you. He said so many times, Erica, I love you, I love you, I love you. He will leave you but I would never. Treat me as your boyfriend, love me, and I will give you the attention that you never experience before. So much till your cup overflow. I really wanted to pray for you. Haha "Fyi, The
HE mention is
GODI dont know.. at first I was flashing through this messages because I nearly cried reading it.
I was in my car...Then I sorta forgot about it.
But I sent it to sinyin and leong to see.
I was emo all the way back home.. I was talking to sinyin through skype.. Crying..
I very san fu..
You can see from my previous post.
I was chatting with ben after sinyin had to stop skyping.
Then I forward for him to see.
I reread it... I understood it.
I know what I should do now.I dont will you readers believe what I say.But this is my personal experience that I wanna share.Humans. Humans always let each other down.
They will disappoint one another they will hurt each other.
God. It is written in the Bible , God will never forsake us nor abandon us.
By faith I believe that.
But now I can finally see, and experience it myself.
Regardless my parents or my closest friends .. they will always let me down.
And unavoidable yet hurting thing.
In that message, God said
" Treat me as your boyfriend, love me, and I will give you the attention that you never experience before. So much till your cup overflow. "I finally understood what it really meant.
I can honestly tell you here.. very very honest..
I love yc so deep that I love him more than anything else.
Yc is first in everything I do.. I love him more than God, more than my parents, more than SinYin.
Im being very honest.But because of this, anything yc do hurts me double.
Memories , flashbacks everything about yc when I think about hurts me.
I was confused and lost . I dont know what to do I dont know what I want.
I cried at church.. Today its thanksgiving Sunday.
I dont know how to thank God for my thorns in my life.. I was really lost and cried..
Now, if I would love God.. the way how much I love yc...
God willl never let me down.. Besides God will give me abundence of joy ,hope, love.
Beneficial ?
Very.
Free also.
If I choose the path to love God like I love yc.. God is first in everything..
Everything I do is for God and is God's will..
I think my life will be way better.. and by that time I can let go of all my sadness now
all my worries , hatred, angry, desperation , frustration.
I could deliver a sickness or mental problem if this continues.
And by that time.. I know that I dont need to worry anymore about my life..
Cause I know my life is in his hands.. He will plan for me...
He will give the best for me..
Thats what Im gonna do.
I wanna love God so much.. so much that I love Him more than anything else.
Because God will love me too..
And that will be my target.. for the rest of my life..because it brings me happiness? =p
What Im trying to say here is..
To be honest..
Im super damn lazy to pray.. to talk to God , to read my Bible.
Damn christian failure de lo me.
I neglected God for sometime already.
Really.. I was so contented in my own life , my own problems .. myself.
I didnt care .. Yet God didnt give me up
Yet God is still trying to call me to go to Him..
I knew that even after I broke up with yc... But I still refuse to listen
I refuse to go back
Until today... He sent a friend of mine to tell me everythng He wanted to say
Because I was closing my ears and didnt wanted to hedar His words.
But He still wants to tell me He loves me...
I ask all of you now here..
None of you can speak like what my friend had said in the messsage.
Im not even close with tat friend of mine.
I never told her my problems.. she just only knew abit abit from my blog posts.
Yet she can say such things, things that I dont think anyone would have the authority to say.
But God gave her the authority to tell tell me..
And I dont think anyone of you would say such things to me.. or ever thought of such things to tell me when Im emo.
Thats how significant it is.
God.. no matter how.. he didnt give up me.
If I was Him, I would had given up on myself d.
His love so great that I cant say anything ler..
You think le? If I was once very close to you but then neglected you so much.
You would have given up on me also right?
I will try.. From today onwards.. I will love God like I love yc..
This is my only hope.. and my only hope to be happy..
Well.. Lets see la ok?
Lets see will I be happy back.. Can God really bring me out from this desparation and come back to the light..
All of us let see..
2009 will be a wonderful new year..
IT WILL BE SO DIFFERENT.One more thing to be honest, I havent finish my baptism testimony. I didnt know what to write.I guess I know why God had to let me be lazy till today.Because my testimony would be this.Because this would be the one experience that took the most of me and made me so so sad.Really..Praise the Lord.
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Firstly I would really
thank God lo.
Thank God for helping me...so so much .. so much..
till millions of thank you wont pay..Jesus rawks!
God is so wonderful.. that now I can slowly see His plans and understand...
Then I want to thank you
SINYIN!She.. my bestest bestest friend.
Really.. no one like her.
I say come find me means come.
She sacrifice alot for me. And really had been by my side like every sec when I needed her.
I love her.. so much. Nobody would ever be like her to me.
She share my pain , she knows everything.. she comforts me.
She would spend 24hours a day with me a month if I requested it.
Next..
BENJAMIN!!Damn u. I love you so much ben.
hahaha I keep wanna say I love you to you.. because really I feel so so so thank you to you.
You another one that has been accompanying me the entire time. When I needed you, you sure here to support me. Although I always emo emo emo make till everyone like damn fan me ad..
U never gave me up also! You just keep pei me and be by my side.. I love you!
I love you too sinyin dont jealous hahahahah
then leh...
KOK LEONG!!!My this friend.. He has his own problems. But he thinks like me..
Baba I talk to you I feel very comfortable.. because you and me think the same..
you can feel how I feel.. and you just keep encourage me.. while I encourage you..
I really appreciate you .. you really help me alot.. If really without you .. I also got alot things not solve.. But really thank you... I love you ba =)
Like previous post I have already thanked de I thanked again people like
AARON CHANG!muacks ac.. hahahaha you sure there for me everytime. I love you.=p
* yeala U think i simply say I love you? Im seriously loving them. *Josiah o.O for driving all the way to leisure and sgling to find me. thanks kor haha.
Please do take care.
Yiru, Zanne, Lui, KaLing, Hui Xsin, Tracy. You guys are the best.
You all always can see whats happening... but still supporting me even I make the stuoid decision.But its good because Im learning.
my church friends..
Zanne, Cher,Claudia, Joshua, Darrell. I know.. you guys were worried but also encourage me all the while
Brandon.. Ur bloggie =p and u had been reading my blog and commenting O.O...thanks.
SSM GANG.. 4k , 4m people ..
those who were there at meithengs birthday ..you guys were understanding enough to no ask and keep quiet to let me settle..
Also people like
han jon, peiying, jeremy,bee harn, WAH LUNG . You guys ah. I know you guys had been worried.. Sorry and thanks so much.
Also my jiejie
NEKO!!!! I seldom talk to her.. I used o be very close to her when young but then seldom chat because she went to uni.
Anyway when I told her I broke up with the long term bf of mine, She just quickly called me up and ask me am I alright and call me dont think so much.
I love her.
Last but not least.. I wanna thank my
parents although they wont see this.
Ive been always always showing my temper to them.
I dont listen to them.. im sorta rebellious..
Im demanding.. and I dare to shout at them.
Even on that day I shouted at them in neway because I was really emo and I didnt want to talk about it.
They wanted to talk to me about yc but I didnt want to.
I know I have no right to do that.. But even after doing that they just still talk to me properly..
They never scold me.. and yet they let me aftergoing out the next day go to sinyin's house then overnight at her house.
Kok leong told me yesterday night.. besides whats happening to me now, Im actually very blessed.
I got family and friends that is very very very sayang me.I got everything I need and everything I want.
Just Leong say... alot of people sek me.. So I must take care of myself.
I understand.
I will try again.. =)
But now I have a direction. I know what Im gonna do.
Hehe..
As the music fades..
I will try to let our love fade too~*
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♥~EriCa~♥
I dont know what I want.
"" • 5:59 PM writes:
People say Im tough..
They say Im brave..
But I dont feel so...
Its the 14th today... If we didnt break than we would be together for 1year 8months..
I wished him.. He wish me back lols...
I dont know.. Even if its only 5days ago... I've been trying so hard not to think
Try to be happy .. try to let go..
Its so tiring..
I dont understand why
Why ? why ?
Yc love me before.. But he didnt appreciate me.. he wasnt proud of me.. He didnt care me of all..
He treat his 1ex damn good.. so much better than me...
He treat his current gf so good... so much better than me..
But among all of them I not treat him the best ma..
Ok la but I dont know about his current gf..
But I treat him so good he never treat me good once.. why ?
Now he is like so proud of his gf now..
So love her.. So care for her..
I really wonder.. She didnt even do anything..Just started..
Then so love her le..
then me le? From start when he like me also never treat me good..
I feel awkward now .. I dont know what Im feeling ..
I feel just so damn tak puas hati..
Why ? Again is all why!!!
Why ? Why how come I cannot get his love..How come everyone can have but not me ?
When I try so hard... I mean yeah I know if its not mine even how hard I try it wont bring me any result..
But.. even when that time he likes he also never treat me good..
But now he just with this girl he treat her so good..
Aiks.. Actually.. I also dont know what I want now..
If yc breaks with the girl and come back now I dont thnk I would feel happy neither...
I dont know what to feel.. neither with what I want...
Hmm.. When can I be happy? How much time do I need?
After an emo session I will b happy then emo again ..
ahhhh wtf whatever la .. I give up
I dont kno what to do now!!
I cant cry my ass out to God.. My parents is at home and I have to follow them out..
I cant have my alone time just to express... Im in such pain =.=
yeah myabe to others this is just something small .. But I really cant stand le..
I cant stand le.. everyday try to force myself be happy
dont think dont think ..
give up
give up think about why
damn sien
damn jealous
damn duno what I feeling
confused and lost ?
I want something
I want to know
is it?
I dont know what I want man
Like I freaking wanna swear now
I damn
!@#$%^&*
unhappy
I can honestly tell u nothing will happen to me la
ok??
I wont suddenly do negative things
The worst I will be is just EMO self lol....
Haiz...
I talk so much crap in blog..
I talk to so many people.. I talk talk talk talk talk same thing
talk jor also no point...
As the music fades..
I will try to let our love fade too~*
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♥~EriCa~♥
Let Go~ Let Go of all~*
"Saturday, December 13, 2008" • 9:43 PM writes:
Fong Sau.. Fong hoi Suo Yao~Fang shou~ Fang shou suo You~Hahahaha.. Yea.. Im trying.. Trying real hard..
Trying hard to be strong and overcome this!
4days after =)
I dont know~
Flashbacks... Flashbacks.. Flashbacks..I still love him.. I still miss him.. But currently dont want him.. Because his heart is not at mine.
Things that I do reminds me of him~
My blog posts will be my bank of clear memories..
When I read Kok Leong's blog about him chatting with yc and sharing secrets..
I have the urge of wanting to know..
Maybe because.. I really really want to know what is yc thinking..
Why are all these happening..
Has he really changed? or has he problems unsolved ?
I wonder.. I really wonder..
But I shouldnt wonder so much right?
Yea.. I used to sms him like 24hour... Talk to him on phone at least 5times a day..
Everyday I was with him.. No matter I see him or not..
At school I see him.. back home I sms / call him..
So its like now.. I dont call .. I dont sms.. I dont do anything..
Feel kinda bored not doing anything..
In addition I
MUST go to my parents everyday which makes me even more bored =.=
I cant online.. I cant sms..( nobody so free sms me whole day la )
I cant watch tv. Damn sien.
So like sorta miss him lo...
Well.. dont know la.. Everything is nostalgic to me..
Whenever at times I think of him and that girl I get a lil jealous..
But I feel no point at all..
This is the part I hate most..
The part where you love someone but can get..
Yea I was lucky enough to have him for 2years huh ?
Just I feel that.. I always tell yc..
Its very hard to find a person who you love..and its very hard to find a person who you loves , loves you back...its even harder to be able to have the chance to be with the one you love and who loves you back.So why not? Really.. why not appreciate?I dislike being in this condition..
Hoping camp to come real soon..
Hoping God would set me free...
Im searching... searching for my joy...for my happiness..
I wanna be happy.. a kind of happy that I free from all sadness~
Just waiting for that day..
But hey! Dont worry about me..
Im always sounding real emo in blogs and stuff.. But yeah I wont do anything stupid..
Like if you were me you also will emo la..
But I chose my decision to give up..I will slowly slowly learn to give up..
cold and harsh ways dosent work on me.. I need to be slow...and steady ?! xD
So probably you guys would see alot of these kind of posts + the posts of my usual stuffs..
Using my blog to express out my feelings and getting comments from others?
Yea..thats about it for today.. waiting for the future..
excited yet curious.. What would happen on 2009..........
WONDERS~*
As the music fades..
I will try to let our love fade too~*
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♥~EriCa~♥
end end end!!!!!!!!!! xD
"Friday, December 12, 2008" • 7:02 PM writes:
Hugged, Kissed. Everything. Done.
Taking photo done.
Posting done.
Story told. Still continuing xD
Photos uploaded.
and shall we end !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
XD
and if you wanna know my condition now and like prove that im ok.. please go to Sinyin's blog " http://clowbaby.blogspot.com "or Kok Loeng's blog " http://no-memories.blogspot.com "thank you =D
PLEASE READ THE POST BELOW THEPHOTOS!!!END! hahahahah
As the music fades..
I will try to let our love fade too~*
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♥~EriCa~♥
Last day photo of ca cieh~ =P
"" • 6:03 PM writes:
BE READY~*..........................
9th December 2008.
End day.
Cheras Plaza, Neway. ^^
Ngeks ^^
As the music fades..
I will try to let our love fade too~*
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♥~EriCa~♥
Old photos with yc =D
"" • 6:03 PM writes:
BE READYTHIS BLOG BELONGS TO ERICA !and so I wanna post whatever I want also can.
So dont bising when I post this pics =D
I dont give a hek for who you are hahahahahah
Wahahha SO BE READY!
These are the old photos of me and yc ^^
Its not iilegal .. Its not porn ^^ so yeah here it is.. Memories!
FORM 3~*
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Yc..Form3~ Last time not lengzai hor~
couple bracelete?
i draw for him de xD
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Candid xD
Spot me and him together? 2nd row most right.
LMAO!
FORM 4~*
Outing with tracy and leong take de.. 22/11/08
Autograph by his truly XD
Donno what day when he come my house o.O
Go leisure together~
Go Jusco celeb Alex bday =D 17/12/08
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Pavilion outing =D
Yc house~
Ngeks~
last week de~
alot candid hor
11st year anniversary stuff. The book I made, the sushi I made with him and the rice he cooked for me.
Presents he gave for bday.. etc.
daosa + daosa tong yun he made.
hehe
Valentine gift by me to him.
1st handmade sandwich by me for him. Tuna!
Yin de present for me n him. Pink his, blue mine.
Our phones and keychains.
2nd time cook me fried rice.
I drew it when we 1st got back to each other.
He make de french toast + ham + bacon.
He bring for me at school de abc soup~
he bring for me de Jco Donut.
I make for him de bday cake.
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Bk Candid
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I candid.
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My used to be phone wallpaper xD.
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yc o.O
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O.O
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I candid yc playing guitar at skol xD
Actually I think I uploaded more photos than this.. but because really too many le..
You know la blogger damn mafan one when upload many photo..
So I thinkI might have terdelete it or something..
One hour to do this post. Dont want upload again those deleted laster waste more time.
Im rushing also xD
But anyway thats about it lo~ Our memories... The photos.. haha..
wakakaka..
Like i just wanna upload this to see back the memories and to share.
Dont worry Im not emo =D
Hahaha
Let me tell you.. We couple at form2 14/9/06 then break at 14/11/06
Then 14/4/07 back again then due to some probs with parents 15/12/07 break
4/1/08 back again and now really is end le 9/12/08
=D
As the music fades..
I will try to let our love fade too~*
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♥~EriCa~♥
Erica and Yung Cieh
"" • 4:14 PM writes:
Now at home.. using someone's internet @@
My internet spoiled or something..I cant online T^T
Yea.. 9th dec
END.YC - CA14/4/07 ~ 9/12/08Our story really end le... =)
1year 7months 4days.Haha but I count it as 2years because it just lack few months. Consider 2years already =)
Yes.. Im still sorta sad..
Of course I still
'em se dak' yet..
and missing it..missing the moment and all
I still love him~
Sometime flashbacks just flood my mind.. I think back the days when I was with him
Im jealous.. Jealous of the girl
But then again I feel there's no need of it
Seriously I need time..
I need time to forget.. now is just a 3day old story...
Dont expect me to forget now
Yc .. I met yc the other day at sglong...
I felt.. He is very distant from me..
So close yet so far.. Distant in a sense that.. Yc is no more the yc I once knew
He was a very nice guy when I met him.. But now he's change..
I feel disappointed and sad for him..
that day 8th dec.. I told him that 9th is our last day..
that night I was really sad... so I smsed his gf..
How I get her number you asked?Yc asked her to help buy some stuff.. So she gave her number to yc..
and I saved it also.
So yea the next day 9th dec she replied asking who am I.
I didnt reply till the next morning
I told her that
" you dont need to know me.. I just smsed you for fun.. Sorry to disturb . Bye"She replied
" tell me who are you la.. you always sms me in the middle of the night , it will make me very difficult to reply you "Ca :
" you dont need to know me la "She started guessing who I wasCa :
" nonono, you dont know me de "She still wants to knowCa :
" ok.. if you want to know.. then u mind I call you? its hard to tell you by sms "So yeah I called her and told her who I was and why I smsed her.
So we started chatting and she was asking me about yc's stuff..
At first I felt she was alright.. Not a bad person..
I told her not to tell yc because I know yc will be pissed..
Yc woke up and sms me asking
" you find her? "Then I explained to him. I immediately ask her ( name Man Xuan ) did she tell yc?
She say no.
Yc then replied
" zhadao 99 la... wu yan =.= wen wo dou mei .. hao cai wo pengyou gao shu wo "I ask Man Xuan did you tell anyone? she said she told her friend a that I find her thats all..
her friend told her she didnt tell yc.Then I went to meet up with yc.. Yc told me
her friend told him and her friend lied to Man Xuan.Yc also lied to her that he was single for quite sometime already. And they coupled at 8th dec.
Whereas when I ask yc on 9th dec I said " as long as you and me are single I can still hug and kiss you "
he told me the girl is waiting for him.But he's lying the both of us.
So from what you all can see here...
1st thing : Man Xuan has no good friend.I mean your bf ex find you, you sure tell your close friend right?
and her good friend told yc instead!
What a friend man =.=
Soon then she told me her best friend ended their friendship..
BECAUSE of YCBecause both of them like yc and yc chose Man Xuan and her best friend is now backstabbing her at forum and to yc.
The best friend of her ( name supremenatalyn * forum name * ) also smsed yc and called him to tell him that Man Xuan is a play girl and all sorts of stuff.
I can tell you this girl she is not pretty. Seriously. Meitehng also better than her.
Compare her to Man Xuan, she's no match.
SO WHAT MAKES HER THINK YC WOULD WANT HER?!!!! SOMEMORE SHE SO CONFIDENT.. ZOMG?!Somemore yc only interested in lengluis.. ZOMG?!
Yc took a pic with her.. Ive been wondering why for sometime hahahahahha
I also he dont want take picture.. he take with her XD..
I took last days pics with yc... post it up next time ^^
So me and sinyin kelian her.. then Man Xuan told me to go see the forum.. See how her friend treats her.
Me, as all of you know I dont know how to read mandrin..
So yeah sinyin helped me.
We read from page 1 ~ 23
Guess what we found out?
That forum
S U C K SThe people there can be categorize as
" uneducated / uncivilised "Not because say they are chinese ed.. But the way they act.
Everything they say there have hidden meanings
They are not true to their words and they all show fake identities.
Fake identities in a sense that they have two face.
They act like they are good and gentle people but the way they say stuff is like
FLAMING / INSULTING you indirectly.I mean please la.. you want flame people just FLAME la.. dont scare scare = =
Even Man Xuan was like them.. and sinyin warned me not to be so close to her.
She might betray me also.
At first I have this thought of helping Man Xuan to make her friend shut up.
I thought of posting up all me and yc's photo up on forum BIGBIG then ask that supremenatalyn
YOU GOT ANOT?! YOU CAN KISS HIM? YOU CAN HUG HIM ? YOU GOT HIS ATTENTION? YOU GOT HIS LOVE? YOU GOT ANOTTTTTTTTTTT ?! DONT HAVE LEH.. THEN DIAM LA.But then Sinyin told me not to because its not worth it.
People at ther might just stay uneducated stuff at me so yeah its a waste of time.
I dont think I wanna see tht forum again.. Its just utter OMG ness .
I mean... remember the case of yiru and meitheng?
* sorry ru and lui.. But I have to say this *Yea both of them like the same guy.. But this all depends on the guy right.
If the guy loves the other not you , you cant force neither.
But your friendship is the most important thing because
the guy is not worth your friendship.Am I not right?
In the end Meitheng and Yiru are still good friends.
NOW THIS IS CALL TRUE FRIENDS.
Look at Man Xuan and Supremenatalyn now..
Just because of a guy they just met they ended their friendship.
I mean please la.. HE's just a guy you just met!
You dont even know WHO IS WONG YUNG CIEH.WE, SSM friends and me his EX would know. His family would know.
But not you guys who just met him and know him skin deep whereas we know him HEART DEEP.
Look at their friendship..such fragile and surface-deep friendship.And yet Yc tell me he feels free and no pressure with them. Like having a new life.
Which is utter ridiculous because you dont even know who are them. You dont even know that they will be your good friend. Everyone is putting on a mask. So who knows?
We on the other side, TRUE friends .. friends for 3years and who had helped you so much you dont appreciate.
Remember there was one post I say about yc saying
" dont bother me .. Hear till all these bday thing also dulan "Yea.. This month..
He went gatherin, man xuan bday, meitheng bday, next week ts, and 29 dec he's going to another forum girl bday againCrap ? WE his friends always ask him out the second time of the month he say cant.We call him go out many times he say dowan.Other people call him he want.Yc dont know how to appreciate.really... What I can see is that those forum people.. they are not good people..
The way they talk and act.. Their friendship is so fake..
Yc will one day if Kok leong they all give up to care about him + im already not his gf..
and his friends from forum betray him + his gf..
Then he will settle down and think.. who has ever treat him good..who was his one true friends..
Im disappointed lo.. and sad that yc is with all these people now..
Yc changed.Yeala.. I always control him say cannot go this kind of gatherin.. cannot go sgwang and ts alone.
Cannot this and that.
Yes I control him.. But now I think back.. I did the right thing. I was right.
IF I had stopped him from going to tha gathering.. Yc might not be like now.
He might be better I think.
I did all that for his good.. Just he havent realize it yet.
Soon la.. Maybe all these is God's plan.. A lesson for him?
An experience for me?
But I can honestly tell you here..
I was facing so much problems the past few weeks that I neglected God..
sorta..
I didnt knw how to face Him nor talk to Him.
But even though I neglected Him, God never gave up me.
He kept helping me and I know it.
Slowly Im seeing this picture more clearly.. Seeing the true yc.. Seeing whats happening to yc..
And its like God tell me Yc is not worth your love.. You definitely find a better one.
I didnt want to give up yc not just because I really love him, also I dislike couples stage 1.They play I like you , you like me. I confess to you , you confess to me.
We together .. wa paiseh la ..1st kis la.. 1st hug la.. this and that
Every starting is the sweetest part
Which is the most nice part yet most fake .
Because after sometime relationship goes wrong.
And like me and yc 2years le.. I understand him much and him too understand me.
We dont need to waste time anymore to reunderstand a person all over again.
Thats why yc dont know how to think about this. Dont know how to appreciate.
Im excited bout the future.. Wondering how would this story go..
What would happen to me, to yc.
Slowly Im starting to forget and let go..
Yea when flashback comes I feel emo.. but I would just be happy when I think about the bright future ahead.
yet I pray that yc will be back.. I dont want him to go the wrong way and mixing the wrong friends.
Now me still loving yc and me wanting yc to be back is two different things.
Yes I still love him. But no I dont want him back.
He's not the yc I once know. He's violent and scary.
Let God plan our future. I just wished that Yc's soul will be saved.
Ive grown up because of this.
Yc and ca..
Our story is really really special..
weird yet special.. what an experience..
And I also ended in a good way. I had everything I wanted to do before it end.
And I didnt ended it with a heavy heart =)
guys and girls.. thanks for all you support and help.
I will definitely try to be happy and be strong to overcome this.
I will try to forget.. try to not be jealous.
Million thanks to
SINYIN , BENJAMIN , AARON CHANG.Josiah, and my ssm gang friends + church friends.
SSM gang = Thanks you guys for being understanding on that day.
For not saying anything when all of you see me shouted and crying like a mad girl =.=
and not for bothering me when I needed time to talk to yc and end everything.
All of you.. thank you.
Ive been with sinyin all 3days straight.
Her help and support was definitely what I needed.
And the best time was when I was with ac ben and yin.
The 3 very best friends of mine where I can just be transparent to them.
I can tell them everything in me and its anything at all.
No boundary between us =D
Happy!!! =D
Yea.. end here first.. would update more soon. and update the photos of me and yc's last day ^^
BE ready! Cose got kis kis photo ngek ngek~ tata ^^
As the music fades..
I will try to let our love fade too~*
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♥~EriCa~♥
end~*
"Wednesday, December 10, 2008" • 10:41 PM writes:
Yea.. I didnt update for sometime..
My internet have some problems..
Currently in sinyin's house..
I wanted to blog about my usual outings but fail..
But today Im gonna blog about something different..
Me and yc are officially not together...
Yea.. You heard me.. The ca that love yc like super damn much.. is not together with the one she love anymore O.O
Yc had lie to me... He had lie to me a million of things..
On 7th dec.. He didnt contact me the whole day...
I thought he slept the entire day..
The next morning I call his house his mum told me he went out yesterday...
And when I asked him about it ... he say his mum remember wrong..
She thought of the gatherin..Then I went online on his forum..
I saw new posts.. So I clicked it..
I saw yc went to a girl's birthday party on 7th.. HE LIE TO ME
He knows how sad I am if I dint talk to him by one day..
Yet he didnt find me for the entire day..
I cried so hard on phone and I asked him.. do u feel regret?
He say no..
No..
No...
Hurt me no regret..
Lmao.
What .. a joke.
He seriously hurt me to the max this time.......
I was so pissed off so sad so scared..
I was shaking and crying and pissed off..
I call him.. Uncontrollably crying in front of parents ... banging my keyboard...
We chatted the whole night.. He tell me he no love me le............
He love other girl... No more feeling for me
I was so desparate so wanting him to stay
I felt there was like no more reason to live...
But It was lucky I knew God.. Or else I wont be here typing this now
In the end I just give up.. I told yc to be my bf for the last day on 9th.
Then we are over..
So on 9th we went to meitheng's party.. I cried almost 3/4 ..
I cried, we talked. We hugged,we kissed, we took photos.. We did everything we use to do as couples..
I call him to tell me one last time ' baby wo ai ni ' and call all my names..
' bao bei, baby, laopo, dear, bii '
Everything done..we ended face to face..
that day... 7th dec.. I got down at time square.. But I went shopping at sgwang instead.
The day yc didnt find me... I was near by him
I had always been wonderin... what if i had went to Time square instead... What happens if I met him there and see all this... then what?
Always when I think about this I feel so awkward and weird..
Im cutting short stories here......
But I tell you.. Yc always say he dont like to sms ..
He sms will sleep..
And whenever he go out.. He will never replie me..
I thought ok la.. You go out you not free to sms me its ok..
BUt yesterday the whole day we out.. He can sms that girl...
He lie de... He can sms ther people.. He can treat other people more good
But not me who has much scarifice and love him and appreciated him
Why ?
I spend 2years effort le.. I try and try to pursue him
Thinking that I will gan dong dao him one day.. I keep trying..
I just kept tolerating him.. No matter how bad he treat me I dont care..
I thought I can make him appreciate me..
In the end he never appreciated me..
Im so confused..
Sometimes he treats me good sometime bad..
He loves me before but he never puts me important..
What is this?
What is this?
He is now with the girl le.. the girl who sat beside him..
so fast have new gf hor? So fast forget me le..
Ca ah ca...
Why did u have to trust yc and love him so much..
I so trust him and love him that I was so child-like mind to believe that me and him would have a future..
that he will be mine forever
Now when I see him.. I see his hands.. I see him
I have this thought.. He used to be mine.. ALL MINE
I used to hold his hands.. I used to hug him.. I used to kiss him.
I see his smile..
I used to owned his smile..
Everything of him was ONCE MINE.
Now not and no more.
I am a person who like to be loved.
He a person who likes freedom.
I who like attention.
He who dont give attention.
He like the feeling of being kao and kap.
I like the feeling of belonging to one person..
I dont like people kao me.. If I got bf.. ALL REJECT.
I will just put my heart and everything for him.... and have no interest for other guys.
Its just all lies from him.
Ca.. yc..ca...
Ca cieh ?
ca cieh.... do we have to end up like this
why?
IF you know how to appreaciate me.. we would be happier... seriously.
just why..
Im still sad of course..
I miss him.. but i dont sms him
I miss my days with him
Everything I do reminds me of him
Because he's my 1st b evrything..
I dont know what Im feeling now
Feeling single is not my kind of thing
I dont like to be single.
I just feel like.. I no more bf le.. I no more yc le..
im single... But I dont wanna be single.. I like to have bf..
I like to have yc.. I like to find him whenever I need him...
yc.........yc......................yc..........
I still love u
It will take me abundence of time for me to forget yc..
To forget my love for him..
his hug. his love.. his embrace.. all...
I will continue this post.. right now my mind is confused and sad..
Im tired also... haiz.
As the music fades..
I will try to let our love fade too~*
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♥~EriCa~♥
aiks..
"Sunday, December 7, 2008" • 9:56 PM writes:
I dont know why... O.o
okay wrong starting..
Yesterday got a some meaningful convo with yc again..
" meaningful " as in I got to know the answers of the questions that had been long stored in my heart @@...
Ok still.............
Im freaking freaking freakingggggg dont know why so jealous = =
No... actually............... Ok la most of you maybe all of you dont agree with me ...
Yc super ........lengzai....to me....
Everytime I go out shopping with him ah.. sure got people stare at him and never take their eyes off = =
And ok the gatherin people also say he lengzai~ wahahaha
whatever = =
Yea.. just... TO ME.. he so lengzai till .... I fear I will lose him..
No... is fear people kao him~
Ok I know what you want say ... " if he loves you and dont wanna leave he will never leave "
yea I also know that la... But I dont feel that assurance from him..
Lol =X
Ahhh~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
IDK~ I dont know la... Just ...
there is ths jealousy... what jealousy is this? Jealous he lengzai ? Jealous girl like to sit close to him ? Jealous...what ?
Fearful................ I wanna be like him.. Lol
I mean.. like... you know.. I dont get as much praises as he do..
Like.. I wanna make known to him that I can be like him also . Lol ?
Sob.. T^T
But yesterday he sent me one message.. " dear... im still yours now "
Yea... ca = "wo duo xi wang ni yong yuan shi wo de @@"
WHATEVER... = =
Stupid crap Im crapping here... Very dont know how la..
Just... If you get what I mean after crapping so long..
T^T.....
Im using super broken english here...
Ok la now I present you the photos of the gatherin yesterday...
and I present you my darling bf = =
zeus is yc -_-
Girl O.O! Yc say.. she lenglui than me.. O.O
YC !!!! LOL =X
His forum pic - - I like this LOL... =X
Leng zai anottttttttttttttttt =X
T^T
As the music fades..
I will try to let our love fade too~*
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♥~EriCa~♥
Work..~*
"Friday, December 5, 2008" • 11:56 PM writes:
http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/20081205/ap_on_bi_ge/financial_meltdownOk.. Just simply post this up for you guys to see.. or any other working visitors of my blog..
Appreciate your job now!
The world's economy is dropping down down and down!
And it wont be up any sooner..
Like I said in previous post, people who slack much and dont wanna work harder are gonna be kicked out anytime soon.
If you got kicked out then its over lar =.=
Because like tons of people similar to you are looking for jobs now!
and employers hesitate to employ people nowadays..
ya so like dont think u can get a job easily = =
For those who are lazy to click the link.. here is the news :WASHINGTON – Skittish employers slashed 533,000 jobs in November, the most in 34 years, catapulting the unemployment rate to 6.7 percent, dramatic proof the country is careening deeper into recession.The new figures, released by the Labor Department Friday, showed the crucial employment market deteriorating at an alarmingly rapid clip, and handed Americans some more grim news right before the holidays.As companies throttled back hiring, the unemployment rate bolted from 6.5 percent in October to 6.7 percent last month, a 15-year high.
"These numbers are shocking," said economist Joel Naroff, president of Naroff Economics Advisors. "Companies are sharply reacting to the economy's problems and slashing costs. They are not trying to ride it out."The unemployment rate would have moved even higher if not for the exodus of 422,000 people from the work force. Economists thought many of those people probably abandoned their job searches out of sheer frustration. In November 2007, the jobless rate was at 4.7 percent.
As the music fades..
I will try to let our love fade too~*
~
♥~EriCa~♥
Mix ? pure?
"" • 8:09 PM writes:
Ca : How come I look normal to you ?Yc : Why are you special ?Ca : Because no matter how you look at me.. I look like mix.. I look different..Yc : I dont like these kind of mix.. Thats why I find you normal..Ok..Yea that was kinda sorta hurt .. But I asked for it so nevermind..
I wanted to know anyways...
He really made a big mistake wanting me as a gf..
That big mistake is kinda hard to be erase off now...
As the music fades..
I will try to let our love fade too~*
~
♥~EriCa~♥
Bleh~*
"" • 1:25 PM writes:
Bleh Bleh bleh~~~~~
Yc go gatherin leeee T_T
He tell me got 3 lenglui go... more lenglui than me... * OMG *
hahahahaha....
Dont know why.. I have this fear that he'll kao lui / kap lui hahahahhaha
wahahha jealous nia~ =X
To him, Im not pretty. Just normal.
Which I find it very weird =.= LOL!
Not I say I pretty la.. But how u look at me I also dont look common to you right =.=
I have this chindian look u'll never forget LOLS!
Ok whatever..
How come I never look pretty to him one ar =.=
Hahah perhaps my eyebags wahaha..Tell me people!
I always say I wanna cut my hairr...since like MAY when I cut that funny hair at mid valley xD..
Yer I always see people's hair so nice.. But mine always just looks so normal.. I want a unique one.. Like before christmas comes I wan a new hairstyle!! xD
Do you think Im lala?
I got 6piercings 3 on both ears... I shop at Sg wang mostly..
I like the clothes there.. I like their hair * some*
do you think Im lala?
ahahahah.. Idk~ I think alot people might think Im lala gua?
Bleh~ crapping... YC! dont kao lui pls hahahaha =X
BYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE =X
As the music fades..
I will try to let our love fade too~*
~
♥~EriCa~♥
TWO THINGS I NEED NOW.
"Thursday, December 4, 2008" • 11:54 PM writes:
I NEED A HOUSE PHONEI NEED A POST PAID PHONE.
yes I so neeeddddd those! Wahahahah with that I can call sinyin and yc.. at cheaper rates!!So much cheaper than now .. im owiz reloading like crazy lo these days..one month i think can use up to...I just counted.. I got 1031 reward points for the month of nov..rm10 =20 points..So i reloaded......exactly...rm500..WTC XD!!!LOL! ok hahahaha I so cant survive on prepaid phones @_@dang! nitez!
As the music fades..
I will try to let our love fade too~*
~
♥~EriCa~♥
I figure it out....
"" • 9:07 PM writes:
I know..
I figure it out..
All the while I was thinking about leaving him and we're not gonna be together anymore..
I was thinking about that I dont wanna give up but I have to..and have to be friends and all sorts of those things..
I almost forgot one thing..
Remember my second post after I say I will stand for myself?
Yea..I forgot..Both of us agreed not to think about the future..
He has what he wants and I have mine..
Though both needs differ but we wont focus on what we want..
Instead focus on now..now that we would love each other and make this a memory..
But like who knows the future.. who knows if destiny changes?
maybe we would end or maybe we would continue on...
That all depends on God...
The thing most important now is we do not focus on what we want in future.. But to cherish the time now..
If he can do it .. I can..
Yc, you have some good in you too. =p
And I know I didnt love you wrong.
I love you =)
Erica and Yc would have a wonderful story carved in our hearts and memories =)
both of us have a bright future ahead.. We would one day be in our happiest day of our life..
with or without each other.. as couples or as best friends... we would bethere for each other.
The power of relationship =)
I finally..Can do it.. I smiled.. From a smile that is not hiding sadness and tears...
But a smile that is for really happy..
Thank you God for settling things ^^
I must be happy! I must redeem back the joy I once had in my life!
Enough of this dullness I had!!!
and Im gonna try hard to be happy...try hard to get things right..
And do my best to make this relationship one of the best in my life =)
Yeah baby~ I love you erica~ =X
* yeah i know im talking to myself.. and I know my emotions.. sudd down sudd high =X *
I sorta like this pic xD
I love this! xD
As the music fades..
I will try to let our love fade too~*
~
♥~EriCa~♥
Slacking~*
"" • 2:42 PM writes:
Yeahhh~~ FInally get to slack at home!
with my stupid 1st day of pms pain though @_@
Stupid de T_T..
but I still love it sooooo mucccchhhhhhie to be at home!!
Just finish watching Bleach - The diamonddust Rebellion -
I waited fot that movie for the entire year!!
at that time I was still crazy-ing about Bleach.
Stop anime-ing so much this year @@
***
If I could have a choice..
I want to choose not to give up yc..
Just.. I have no choice..
Perhaps God is planning something?
I reapeating all these over and over again..
just because its playing in my mind non-stopingly even if I refuse to think about it..
I kept trying to tell myself..I need to let go..
But I feel its a lie....
I know.. I dont wanna letgo..
Not just because I love him.. also because..He's what I wanted..
I just cant lie to myself that I want him..
The effort I took to build up this relationship with him..
and preserving it..
The reason for whats happening now is unknown..
What is God planning?
The future unknown yet a mysterious thing thats yet to be seen..
Im waiting for it.. so eagerly...so worried..
Must learn to surrender all to God..
How I wish that day when everything started didnt come ^^
so I dont need to be like where I am now.
From that day onwards my heart didnt felt right..
I felt sad inside while hiding it with a smile.
I wish.. all these clouds of frustration and depression could go away ^^...
I love yc....
Hmm...........
I really wish...If I was given a choice..Not to give up...
As the music fades..
I will try to let our love fade too~*
~
♥~EriCa~♥
Tired~
"Wednesday, December 3, 2008" • 9:50 PM writes:
Sorry for not updating much lately~
Had been helping out my parents at thier office these days
and Im super exhausted everyday..
Like I go there 8am then I come back 10pm
Totally have no time to do my stuffs and I come back bath and just drop asleep on bed..
Or else I just on awhile then I start to get sleepy..
I didnt have time to prac piano
Havent even started my baptism homework * OMG *
Ok.. Seriously like..
My mind and heart was like super confused these days~
I need an answer... I need a solution.. I need a rest.. I need something to hold on.. I want to believe.. I want to feel love.. I WANT TO BE HAPPY..
I need peace in my heart.
Like seriously, Lol just too much things happening too much for me to settle out at once..
I miss the peace in my life Just before the holidays..
I miss it... I really want to be happy...
I really is in need of God's help..
Camp please come soon =(
Im trying to be happy...But I cant seem to lie to myself..
The fact that I still love him very much..
I am trying..Trying..Trying..
I will try hard to let go of him.. Just one day ..
Maybe destiny will change..
But I wanna see him happy.. and Im waiting for that someone who really loves me and I love him too...
Yea...I like to be loved so much =D
I wish I could "stop work" =.= IM so freaking tired and bored!
=(~ Hmmph~ I bought the bleach cd and have no time to watch too =(! geram~
Anyway yea... would update much more tommorrow or next week or this weekend or something
Gotta go rest now.. Tomorrow is another day's work
IM SO LACK OF SLEEP!
Enjoy~
^^
work too much de noob look =.=
As the music fades..
I will try to let our love fade too~*
~
♥~EriCa~♥
Did YOU see the moon just now?!
"Monday, December 1, 2008" • 9:42 PM writes:
=)
Lol these are the photos I got from forum.. I tried taking pictures myself but not sucessful =(
This ones are cool~
SO CUTE WEI!! xD
Smily face! xD once in a lifetime wei xD
I was watching it with yc xD
Yc said one was Jupiter and one was venus O.O!
Im gonna go google it now ~ update this with the link later~ Ciaos~~!
Yeng right?!
It was seriously Jupiter and Venus!
U miss it? Then have to wait 5years for the formation again =)
As the music fades..
I will try to let our love fade too~*
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♥~EriCa~♥
Jesus~!
Abigail
May 2007
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