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First things first

TWILIGHT WAS A LET DOWN

Everyone keep telling me how nice was it and stuff and some even say they want to watch it the second time so I thought " wa... sure damn nice de la.. the book also nice dy.."

Yea I was freaking excited to watch it..and then after watching... I just feel... it sucks =.=
lol cause first of all...
those who didnt read the book before they dont know the story which make it very interesting for them..
2nd... the story was abit like jumping from part to part and well its not as nice as the story in the book goes..in the book was more exciting..
3rd.. well we practically know the story and know what they'll say.. and we expected more..

Ok la conclusion the movie isnt nice~ so............... I dont know how to say this lar..
It let me down .....=.=

Okay today I went with cg members to watch Twilight at Leisure..and basically we did nothing there except eat, watch movie and walking around like nut people xD
Leisure sien nia!!

Was suppose to post this yesterday but was too tired =.=
The day before yesterday which is 27.11.08 I slept at 2am T_T...
K then yc smsed me at 5am so I woke up to accompany him..
Then I have to wake at 7.30am to go tuition !
Tuition is at 10am but I have to follow my parents out or else nobody's free to fetch me ...=(
So I was like freaking freaking tired and my eyebags were as black as coal lol.. I'M SERIOUS!
All of you know how serious my eye bags are already , what more is I lack sleep ? =( ugly meeeee..

Ugh , Oh well then after tuition my dad called up say I have to help out my mum at office because the workers didn't show up.
Freaks right? I mean, since like everybody know the economy is down SO jobs aren't easy to find anymore.
Like.. " employers will hesitate to employ, employees are afraid that they'll get fired "
Yea lazy asses have to buck up because unwanted workers are being kicked out.

So yeah, its been a long time since I touch those office works so I was a wee bit slow because I needed to understand.. Then after I got the hang of it I was faster..
So yeah I do do do do do do do till 8pm =.=
and then go eat dinner.. Balik rumah.
End of story.

The work was easy, just that I didn't had that much energy due to lack of sleep.
So I was exhausted like mad when I came home.. online for awhile then I went to bed.
I don't understand why the workers there always complain about too much work or too complicated or difficult. Because I can do it a the age of 12. I can do it at the age of 16 now.
Its nothing much of that complicated.
And they get like freaking high salaries for there level of education and work performance.
STILL THEY COMPLAIN!!! ==
I'm sure if any of you came you would feel its sap sap shui also..
I mean I give u the maximum time of 2weeks, you definitely can get the hang of it.


Yesterday about 3~4am ( unsure )
my mum woke up and went to the washroom.
and so she heard noise outside the house. Very noisy, people chattering.. and stuffs.
Its was like early morning la... where got people chat de right? No youngsters live at my row.
So she woke my dad and they both when to check it out..while I was still sleeping soundly xD

There was two police cars outside.. two houses away from my house.
It seems that there was this Malay / Bangladesh / Indonesian guy who broke into the house and went to the owner's son's room to steal his purse.
However the owner's wife woke up and saw him.. the thief ran for his life.

Apparently my neighbourhood now is no longer safe @@...
You guys know Mines? Yea.. There is always populated by Arab people, Bangladesh and Indonesians shopping... and most of them stay around here.
2 similar cases had been happening this month in my neighbourhood.
And me who always is alone at home the entire day is .. hahaha in quite dangerous situation xD..

Imagine la~ How the world is gonna be.. worse and worse... I dare not live on earth anymore xD!
Neh ciaos! I gotta go work again =.= tired sia!! T_T

READ THIS!

http://edition.cnn.com/2008/WORLD/asiapcf/11/27/india.attacks/index.html

as far as any of you are concern, India has been bombed?
Those of you who dont watch news dont read news or what so ever...Fyi India just got under attactk by terrorist?
Im not sure about it but yeah its surely is going through some life and death experience here..

101 died and 314 wounded in attacks

I mean.. IT HIT THE HOTELS!!

Like, going on a vacation has definetly slipped off my mind now..
NO WHERE IS SAFE ANYMORE~
Dont tell me " what also scare then go die lo because you might die at home "
For those who wanna shoot that at me, I tell you that is irrelevant.
I tell you like, thw world is going through financial crisis and economy breakdowns and like WHO DOSENT WANT MONEY AND POWER?!

Yayayaya dont tell me your a teenager or a kid so it has nothing to do with u, u are not bothered what the hell is happening in the world as long you are happy =)
Yea, the less you care, the faster you gotta start losing your life.

I see Malaysia crime rates getting higher., My parents would not stop mumbling and nagging whenever I wanted to go out... When was the days where kids could have freedom and fun outside of house?

Wars everywhere , I've never seen peace.
I know nothing about India for a half Indian like me.
But I know it isnt nice to play with bombs and explosions.
taking people's lives and destroying one's country and taking more lives because the family of the lives you have taken had got over depressed hence, commit suicide. Random.
Yea but still didnt anyone think before why we should never do bad things?
Not ONLY because it hurts people its because it will be your sin for life!
Well at least those people who set up this plan was useless..
How bad the contry and the citizens may be , no human have the authority to kill another human.
Dont crap to me "police, snipers, etc" irrelevant.
They bomb a hotel, now makes me thinks that what if I did went for a vacation..
One BAM then im a goodbye.

Ugh~ sad case. I mean hasnt anyone got enough of wars from our history book and see the effects of it?
Or hasnt anyone seen and saw what happen in 911?
Yes, they are either probably brainless or heartless.
No perhaps demon-possesed.

Next time anyone of you wanna go on a vacation, think again.
Think of how some people could be so heartless and cruel they'll jut bomb you to death.
Tata~ Cyu~TooT

So utter ridiculous...I hope the death toll dosent climb.
God help them@@......................

White makes you look fat / pure
Black makes you look sexy
Red makes you look hot
Orange makes you look fun
Yellow makes you look enlighten
Green makes you look gentle
Blue makes you look calm
Pink makes you look cute
Purple makes you look mysterious
Brown makes you look dark

All this are done by pure boringness
I have no idea what I did this for..xD
and probably the how I match the colours and they way you would turn out is wrong xD!!!
Hahahha like I say, just plain boredem and this suddenly pops into my mind, so I decided to blog about it hahah
If you dont agree with me you can send comments on cbox =p!

Ok.. maybe I cant stop blogging.. =P
I just am addicted to blogging somehow... But msn all that will be lessed opened ?
Im not so fond into on my msn at times because I felt irritated..well at times though..
But yeah I wanna lessen my time online...
I wanna spend more time on my studies and my quiet time with God =)

Waskinda emo yesterday;)
Hahahahah... Going to get new specs soon??
Maybe.. Not sure..
I have to work somedays at my mum's because of the stupid irritating workers..
Undedicated and uneducated.. What they do for their work is some work that a UPSR educated person can do ... =.=
and yet they can do it so slowly and complain about too much work.
It can be done really quickly... I had donet before... So yeah, they are so slow and they still wanna complain so much =.=

Er..Oh well ... currentlyhave nothing to blog about.... I guess? =p
crap here and there
I wanna try not to think so much what Im worrying about ..
Try to put is aside so I can feel better?
Because of it I always had emo-ed myself around the day..
Trying to be happy...
To redeem back the joy I once had.

Just finish piano class an hour ago..
Myself Im learning how to play Zanarkand =p!
the song in my blog? Yea.. I kinda.. not is actually I love that song =)
bla bla blaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
^^

Hey guys...and girls =)
I perhaps wont be blogging or onlining and stuffs for the time being..
I really need some real time alone... really... alone...
how long.. I wont know.
I have been facing alot of problems lately....really... My emotions are unstable so I just need to my time alone to get a clearness of my insanity xD
I need to clam myself down and think..
I dont wanna hear advices and such.. because all are the same and I have heard it all..
I thank everyone who had advice me and helped me.. but its time for me myself to think properly..

I wont on my msn, nor blog nor friendster?
Friendster maybe I will just look through it if I want to..
Comments , cbox, messages, email will be lessed replied.
Smses, I wont reply.. If I want only reply hehe..
Calls I wont pick.. Only if necessary , require , or I want to...

Sorry la.. I really really need my time alone and I hope all of you would understand..
So if you can, please do not contact me unless if its an emergengy or someting very important.. ok?
Thank you.. and dont worry about me..
and would you kindly please not call my mother or father ?
I dont wanna bother them.. They had been facing alot of problems due to the economy ...
So please.. do not bother ok ? =) sms me if its important so i will pick ur call.

~Erica~

I havent been posting much havent I ? =)

So confused.... about everything and anything...
The truth hurts.. It hurts really much..
All that I have been through with yc... 1year 7months...
All those messages, happy and sad times, all of that which he said, all of that which I hope.
My hopes were too high, now it has all shattered in just a blink of an eye.

Why?! Why .... I never believed in forever when I was in form3...
Why did I believe in it.. Why was I so unrealistic? To believe in such flaw..
Such false dreams and hope..

I thought.. I thought all that yc say was the truth.. Every message that I kept of what I wanted to remember and see back what he said.. was a lie~!?
I thought, when yc said forever, it was forever.. We planned forever.. I planned.. My future has him!
I really did believe we can last...I was so child-like minded..
Now that I know so much truth, I dont know what to believe anymore..
I dont know which of his words are true, which are false.
Is he happy? is he?!

Yesterday.. I know truths that I never knew.
Yc found out I wasnt the kind of girl he wanted..
After talking for 3hours? He cried..
I ask him is it very san fu ?
He say yeah.. I ask why ? Because Im forcing you?
He said no..because I have to be with someone I dont love...

Why must we end like this ????????
Why ? Im not happy, he's not happy..

No one is ...The once us who was so happy...
Yc who I love so much.. I felt so hurt to see him like this..
Im hurt myself to know that Im not the one for him..

There are much more than this..
I cant stop crying.. I cant stop thinking...
Why must it end like this... why must I know... Why must I know yc..
If we both didnt met...we would be happier ?

Confused, lost..
I do not understand what is God planning..

I dont know... People... Lets not comment about this..
I just wanna express... Thats all..
I feel so confused and lost... I dont know what to do.. who to tell..
Im scared?
Im scared yc leave me..Im scared that he san fu.. he wil be sad and unhappy.
Unsure of what I want...I DONT KNOW!!!!

IM SO FREAKING IRRITRATED...
I just hope I can see yc now ...Hope that he will hug me and comfort me..

I dont want any of you to comment bout this, to say anything about it..
Whats most important now is.. he still loves me.. and I still love him..
But whatever you guys think I dont care..
I dont care what you all say also..
As long as we both agree.

I love yc I really do.

Yc still loves me now...I, of course still love him too..
We agreed to think about the future.. not to planned about it.. Just focus on now since we still love each other..
Our future hopes are different..
But maybe it will changed our destiny if we do not set or targets on what we want...
Me n yc are still together... We still love each other..
thats what matters right now....

Thank you... and I love you .... all of you.. I love you :

Ben..
thank you.. for being there for me.. for accompanying me..trying to cheer me up.. thank you for your time and your help.. thank you for believing in me and supporting me..

Kaling..
Thank you for listening and understanding...thank you for believing and supporting me too..

Sin Yin..
You had always been there for me.. You always had..
I know no matter how you do not agree with me.. You will still be there..
I dont want us to fight, but I have my own choice. Thank you

Kok Leong..
baba.. thank you for always helping me and listening to me.. and your advices... =)

Juang..
Thank you for always listening to me cry =.= and helping me alot .. always also help me.. really thank you alot... thanks for all the help and time u gave me..

Pei Ying..
Thank you for caring about me.. and supporting me.. =)

Sam
Didi... thank you for trying to cheer me up even I was so cold to you.. thank you for worrying about me? heh..

Josiah..
Kor.. You had always been there for me too.. Even though you dont agree with me... But you would still support me if it was what I wanted..

AC...
Thank you for being there for me.. and advising me.. thank you for cheering me? " my phone 24hours one.. i will pick up de" that made me smile... bestie =)

Yiru..
Thank you for caring about me .. =)

Su Zanne..
Thank you.. I cant help you even when you got problem..so sorry ><.. I thank you cause you did left me alone haha.. and gave me space?

Jer...
Thank you for caring about me.. though I was so rude.. sorry...

Kim Hon..
Lol.. how also you treat me as mui cared about me.. thank you.. I appreciate it..

and for all those who was worried about me.. I thank you ... ><. Im sorry I made you guys worried.
Im sorry im such a handful that I always needed help.
and I just hope that.. you guys would respect and support my decision.
If you guys wouldnt its ok..I understand..
I will stand for myself..

lastly..

Yc.. wo an quan gan you mei le..wo hai shi zai hai pa...hai pa ni hui zai li kai wo..
ren shuo.. ru guo wo zhen de ai ni jiu fang ni zou..
ke neng wo zhen de shi hen qi guai de yi ge ren bah..
wo bu xiang rang ni zou...
wo bu se de de rang ni zou.. wo fang bu dao shou.. yong yuan wo dou fang bu dao..
tai xu yao ni ai.. tai xu yao ni bao hu he zai hu..
bu hui shuo...wo zi yao shuo...wo zhen de hen ai ni..
ni gan jue bu dao... wo jiu hui nu li gan dong ni..
wo bu guan ren jia jiang wo shen me.. wo dou bu hui fang qi ni..
Wo ai ni...

My Christmas wish to God this year..
Yc never to leave me again..
He would love me..

I love yc =( too much...

Wo ai ni..

Because no one supports me
no one supports me going back with him
all everyone says is move on , accept the fact, u'll find a better one.
YEA CRAP.

I CHOOSE NOT TO MOVE ON! I CHOOSE TO PERSUADE HIM AND I CHOOSE TO TRY!

Because no one can know.. only I can feel whether yc still loves me or not...
All of you might think I might be lying to myself..

His words I believe is just to make me patah hati..
I BELIEVE I CAN DO IT

and SO IT IS MY DECISION
no matter yow pointless everyone thinks it is.
No one support me then I will stand for myself.

Acting emotionally, acting unnecessarily, only I love him he dont love me, whatever all of you might think.
I made my decision, I made my choice.
I vowed not to leave him.. swear never to seperate from him
and thats what Im gonna do.
No matter how much it is I have to go through somemore..
no matter how meaningless.
as long as i agree with it.
I will stand for myself.
done.

Im vey very very very annoyed..paranoid..
sorry to say this.. but Im in a very wtf feeling..
I was deleting some emails in my mail box and saw this email out
" ladies!! WASH 1st!!! "
So I opened it..
It says about a woman who bought her undergarments and didnt wash it instead just wore it straight away.
Well then after sometime she notice holes at her breast.. thinking that it'll disappear somehow..
Soon it begin to had pains so she see a doc..
The doc gave her creams and stuff... thinking it was skin problem..
Then it started to bleed... I forgot who she went to see next..
She had to wait two weeks for the doc.. so she plastered it.. When the doc came back.. they saw more holes and larvaes at her breast..
AND THEY SHOW THE PICTURE WHICH WAS FREAKING EEKING STINKING DISGUSTING........
THERE WERE STINKING HOLES AND LARVAES THERE...!!
AND THE PICTURE IS STILL IN MY MIND ... I AM SO FREAKING OUT !!

It seems that the undergarments she bought had parasites... So the email was to warn us ladies to wash our new clothes and undergarments before wearing.
and im am so wtf now....
the picture keeps staying in my mind and Im having goosebumps every sec..
LIKE WTH!!!!
ARGH!! grrr.... im still freaking out here =(
I just wish I didnt look at it.. knowing was just enough...
I pray that the pictures slips away from my memory =(!!!!!

ARGH!!

hmm.. Lets say I can choose 2 presents.. Though after choosing my parents might not sure buy it for me..
My internet is completely laggy =.=
current one is izzi net.
wanting to change to streamyx.. but streamyx has much complains from others also.. @@
I need gaming nets for no lagg fast gaming =X
My computer.. Though nothing is inside there.. but its really old already.. consider incompatible..??
very slow @@.....
If I buy a new desktop... everything I will buy good de.. so few years also no need to change =X until its old like this current one =X
So............
should I get

• Laptop
• Desktop
• w980i
• streamyx

???
phone you know lar.. I like that phone alot...
Laptop.. I want it for... everywhere gaming,blogging =X but high power graphic cards laptop damn heavy like my dad's @.@ I dont think I need that do I ?
I saw this laptop.. vaio.. pink.. new. Nvidia graphic card. Not very high powered or something. But I know is not those super geng type lar.. Just normal.. can play online games.......

=p i very mafan right.. My parents no say yes or no yet. But money is till a problem.. I mean.. spending so much... They tiok me later @_@
Im just saying la.... Just wanted to choose... If they ever ask me I've alredy made up my mind mar =X

So freaking sleepy now...~~
I woke up at 9.30am.. Because I was going to have piano class at 10.30am..
I waited ... and waited...and waited.. till 10.51am I smsed my teacher..
I asked her whether is it she forgot to come.. It seems that she came, she was here..
She cant get through my phone.. but my phone dindt ring at all.. no messages of miss calls... nothing?
She knock on my gate.. Bu I perhaps it was somehow soft ?
I didnt on any tv, music or whatsoever noise. I really didnt hear it. I didnt know she was here neither!
She was kinda pissed I think.. I think she thought I ffk her.. omg @_@
I didnt @@.. I was here waiting like seriously..
Sob..and now Im tired.. even with 9hours sleep Im still heck tired..and missed class.. sien kia!

No, the diao I meant in my title is the bad word..

See the arrows?

I was cleaning my messy closet yesterday =.=.. I seriously have.. too much clothes. =X

all those arrowas are all my clothes xD

Yesterday Mummy tapao " wendy's" for me. I know its not a popular restaurant in Malaysia.

Daddy said he always had it when he was a Uni student in Canada.

So I gave it a try... Not bad lar... Not as oily as KFC,McD, and Burger King. It have a really nice taste. I think only available at Mont Kiara? Where the population foreigners is the highest Lols.

o.o..

burger~ =x

I love this!! steam potato and..cheese??

Give it a try someday. =)

I wish.. the something that is bothering me now can go away... I dont know what is it. @@

is going to burst any minute from now..
I dont know what happen to me.. Im having restless sleeps..
As I dream too often too fast ? When the minute I fall asleep I'll start dreaming and dreaming non-stopingly with different dreams and different stories altogether..
By the time I wake up, I'll be very tired, as seems I never had slept but just had gone through millions of adventures in my mind over the night.

I wish my mind can just stop thinking. Lol
I know it just sounds so wrong..
Because I cant stop thinking about matters that worries me..everything seems to come in my mind every minute without giving me rest ..
I cant blank my mind for even a sec.. I dont know the reason..

My mind keeps playing - I need to do this. I need to do that.
I need to study.
I need to practice my piano.
I need :
finish baptism homework
get w980i and vaio laptop
go shopping
clean up messy storeroom
update blog
get new specs
I want them "3" to go camp with me =(
bla bla bla!!!

I NEED SOME REST FOR MY BRAIN!
and now Im having this
sinusitis.
Sinus ~ a kind of my so-called disease for nose lol =X
Its for sensitive noses like mind.. allergic to dust, allergic to sudden change of state of the environment such as..I go from a super fully air-conditioned place to a scorching hot sun burning field.

I really need some rest.. I pray that God will give my mind rest.
I really cant stand anymore thinking.. Im actually stressing myself for that.
=(

One thing I realize bout myself..
Im not a person which is very friendly and open..
or very easy to be friends at first sight.. In a sense..
Well, I thought I overcome my shyness that I had when I was a child.
I always had been afraid to talk to people I dont really know / just met / relatives / whatsoever.
But then now I only realized I hadnt overcome it.. I was still the same..

I really feel like talking to them, but then I dont dare.
When they gimme eye contact, I look away.
Thats why..I have very little close friends, and those close friends that I have.. took us abundence of time to be close... for me to trust them.. and for them to trust me.
Entirely.
But thats still depends on a person though.. Sometime at the first time meeting them I can feel that I can trust them.
Example? Neko~ My most beloved kai jie.

Seriously.. I can say one thing.. Im not really close with my church friends..
I have no idea why.. at first I was afraid that they know about my bf thing .. Im afraid it will spread it to my parents? But now no more lar..
Still.. im not close with them..I cant speak fluent english when with anyone at all..
except only when Im praying.. weird huh ?
I hadnt click right with them =(
The closest people I have in church, zanne and joshua, josiah.
The closest Christian friends - zanne , joshua , josiah, jeremy, richmond.

Haiz..Im so distracted by the sinus
Stinking sick~

I finally.. did went to Amanda's birthday party ^^

The group pic~ You see the extra on top ? XD

I dont know what to put as title..=.=

Something I had at Milwaukee~ Fish mornay ??

In car, on the way to Pavillion =)

Ciaos ~ ^^

Super Noob means super noob.
Lamish.. She is a shame to all chinese-ed people.
I mean, where got people so lame ...
She's 16! same age as me, and as a girl.. we are usually much mature than guys.
But still.. as a 16 year old teen, you should know whats right whats wrong and stuff la..
She's like uber lamish.
Who am I talking about?
The one I mention fighting at school yesterday,
Baobao.

I wanted to see her blog just a moment ago.. I thought she would write something about what happened yesterday ~
Then I was looking for her contact.. Found her.. and saw her pm..

I cannot find whats wrong with my blog!!

http://ca-tryouts.blogspot.com/

this is the web where I edit and try my skins..

There is no difference in the coding..
and try click on the pictures.. It can be clicked!
My blog cant!!!! why ?!

I copy and paste the coding from my tryouts blog.. and the picture cant be click neither!
So there must be something with my blog itself lar? T_T

Would someone teach me how to enable right click and clicking of my photos ??!!

People sleep late and wake late in holidays..
I do too.. nono.. I was..
Now, I think I wanna change my mind to sleep early and wake early =X
Despite after so many years of sleeping late experiences , now Im regretting it =X
I used to sleep at probably 4am~5am~6am and wake at 4pm~5pm. =)
hahahhaha so weird right, its like I'm living in the other side of the world.

This holiday Im gonna prepare myself to a new era ..zzzzzzzzzzz... crap
Ok.. I actully gonna sleep at 10pm or 11pm.. then wake at 9am..
If I sleept more than 10hours my eyes will be really soar =( I dont know why~

Holidays had come..
and I keep having this feeling that it will end very fast =(
I dont know why... Yes I miss everyone.. But I dont wanna turn 17.
And the more I think about it the more I feel like Im goriwng up too fast and future things keep flashing through my mind.. T_T
yer.... Dont want la~ I dont wanna grow up hahaha...

K bah... Later if I wanna update then I update =X
Going to baptism class later =D now gotta rest.. Chao~ ^^
Happy Holidays ~!

Yc was playing around with my bottle ==.. Then Kok Leong call me to snap a photo~

Leong and Yoges on top. Kang bottom, pushing them around in the dewan =.=

^^ from left : bk,yiru - kang, lex - ling, aun chik, ca - cieh.

Top : Yiru's camera, Leong's phone.

^^ cieh - ca~~

Sangat the cantik!!!

all hardcover somemore T_T oh dear ..

I WANT THIS FOR CHRISTMAS! ANYONE?! =x

Argh~ Mau mau mau~ Mau~ I feel bad if i buy another one.. so im thinking.. who to present? =X!!

bashing someone..
I feel like punching my pillow, or hitting someone.. ( yc ) =X softly lar..
I feel like..............Im gonna get sick soon...

I regret 3things in my life now,
1. For sleeping late.. now causing serious case eyebags and the problem with my height..
Mr Toh says genes dosent play a much bigger role then sleeping early..

2. For watching tv inches away from the screen and playing computer for overly hours..now causing I need to wear stupid specs which is so troublesome and wasting money which also makes me very ugly wearing it = =

3. For wasting my life's time for not learning anything when I now realize I had so much free time when I was young. Now, I have no more time to learn much of things that I want to learn.. and some.. not useful for my life as an "adult" in the future... But its something I like to learn but didnt have the privilege.

Yes, I know.
Im crapping.
=x!
What I wrote was lame and weird
hahahahahah =X
abit siao-ish today.

Many things and events have been playing in my mind.
Many thoughts have been occupying my mind and now Im so completely blur of what Im actually worried off.. what Im actually thinking..
Sometimes Im worried of something.. But Im unsure what it is..Because the millions of thingd I am worrying comes crashing into my thoughts all at one time..
Ok... Perhaps I dont think anyone would understand what Im saying here =.=
Im trying to tell that is... I got too much things in my mind that Im thinking about that I lost my "mind clearness".. clarity ? to think what am I thinking of..

er. whatever.

Lol!
I think I got not enough sleep for the past days... adding on to insufficient water supply to my body..
Im feeling sick =(
My uncle just camp back from England yesterday and bought me Ferroro Rocher Mix Chocs or something..
I am so so so so wanting to try it.. But Im afraid I would make my throats condition even worst..

Holidays are gonna start like in a day more..
After how this year past at the speed of a blink of eye..
I now wonder how fast would the holidays past and then ends the year 2008.
Im gonna be officially over my sweet sixteen, stepping into year 2009 becoming a seventeen-year-old ............teen.
That sucks.
17 is such not a nice number XD
It'll be the last year of my school life, an ending line to my life as a school student, and a new journey to a like of adulthood and college also might include working life.
Then it will be a life of more responsibilities, more pressure, lesser time, lesser fun.

Complicated.

I dun like it~ I wanna stay as a teen no matter how irritating exams are.. or how annoying the teacher and principles are. Because after school time, we're still free and we've got holidays and holidays to enjoy.. we can even skip school as we like =D ( ssm only ) We cant skip work.. we'll be fired.

Argh crap~ I feel really old now XD
I wish time didnt have to past so fast. I wish I wasnt bound to time.
Or maybe I wish I wanna leave earth earlier and go to heaven.

Hahahahaha I know Im crapping alot in this post.. I just wanna say it.. for no particular reasons..
I think I should stop now..

Tomorrow is the last day of school!
and its 14th november!!
Happy 1year 7months anniversary of me n yc =D

Ok~.. My previous blog clock had some errors on its website or something..
I dont know to read jap so I dont understand..
Some of you might have notice it..
People using clocks from that web has the same problem as me..
So I found this web.. with two very cute clocks XD
I dont know which to choose that suits my blog? please choose for me =)!!



OR



Thank you ^^

Today is their big day!

The kitty cat~ =X

We had pizza today.. Buy 1 free one.. Buy 2 free 2 =)

Mr Toh drove there to help us... He took a freaking long time!! Make me hungry like mad!

My tummy was growling for food... T_T

Pizza!!! two stolen when it reached class.. T_T MR TOH ? or yiru and kang stole it?!!

Our present for Kok Leong's bday =X music box XD i edited this photo~ looks more attravtive than the real one hahahah =X

I just found the youth camp blog XD

http://yfcamp2008.blogspot.com/

Anyway!! Come join come join!!
Come register!! Very nice de =D
Superb nice place and I think this year would be great though..
As consider my first youth force camp..
Because the 06 camp I only went for a day =X

Sign up sign up!! Must go!!
Contact me if you interested! Or can contact the people at the blog lar =D

Sinyin! Peiying! Suzanne! Sam(didi)!!
Must go!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I pray for u all to go de~! XD

Venue : Bayu Resort , Pd
Date 27th~30th Dec 08

Come back and go for countdown! =)
Non-christians MOSTLY WELCOME LOL!!
Ok.. Non christians and christians and eberybody and everyone are MOSTLY WELCOME!!

Aiks.. Monday again! Im bored to death at home =(

Its still not opened. See the 20% discount thing? XD I wanna open it during christmas.

Cecelia Ahern. The gift.

A present for myself =)

=X!

Im kinda addicted to her books though.. Not bad =)

I dont have Ps I Love You.. But I finished it already...

Im now currently reading " A Place Call Here " Undescribable..A really.. mysterious story perhaps.. I havent fully understand it yet... Lol =X

Bedazzled phones shines in sunlight~ =D

Snapped a photo before church yesteryday. What I wore to Leisure with Yc =) Got jacket de...~~

Well.. you see my wishlist ? >>>>>>
Hahah I finally had an actual date with yc!!! =p~~~
Super happy today =D
It was supposed to be yesterday ( Saturday)
It clash right with my baptism classes so I had to postponed it to today..
Anyway I didnt tell my parents who I was going with =X
I thought they would just drop me down.....
My mum asked me who I was going with... So I said.. " meitheng and they all~~~~~~~~~~~~"
hahahah~~
not until this morning............

Dad " ca.. you go watch movie we eat there lah "

LMAO.. * DEAD*
Hahahhah I still didnt dare to straight forward and tell my parents about going on a *date* with yc =X
Anyway, I was praying all the way to church asking God
" how Jesus how???????? Help me !! What if they scold.......... how? how? You let daddy change his mind lar T_T"
I smsed Meitheng to ask her whether she can come do show or not =X
Then I was still worrying in church... I heard Jesus said " dont worry I'll take care of it... Focus on praying.... =) "
After service I was worried again! XDDDD
Meitheng smsed me after service saying that she went lunch with her mum!!
oh no?! XD
Then I told my parents meitheng went to lucng would be back later =X!

So, we reached Leisure,
* P2 parking full *
I O______________O"
hahaha and then we went up abit there was still space in the next floor =(
So...we found a parking space...and I went to look for yc..
Daddy say we go have lunch together..So yc went and got the ticket, and waited at the vietnamese restaurant while we were at the toilet.
When me,mum, and grandma got out.. It was 2pm already..
( my service ends at 1.35pm)
Yc bought the ticket at 2.20pm. Lulz ._.
we couldnt wait for the food.... and had to wonder around before the movie starts..
While me and my mum was walking towards the restaurant she asked
" daddy come out already ? ...oh I saw him... with your boyfriend there"
and she look at me smiling sinisterly.... O_______O"

So we went to popular.. I wanted to get a book from there..
Today Yc's mood is very good O.O
Haha.. and he cut his hair... No more big hairy flower head XD
Super-d-Lengzai~~~~~~~!! =X
Woooooooo~ Hahah..and he's like in a real good mood to talk to me..
Accompany me to look at books o.o..
and was like offering to take my bags and stuff.......
and stuff lar... like super good mood today....
Super good mood + nice hair = Super Lengzai = Can electricute me LOL!
Of course, I wont lose in this battle~ =X if you know what I mean.. XD

We watch Quantum Of Solace....
Really nice to watch if he's in good mood... Very-d-sweet =p
He talks to me today with a very nice and soft voice =p!
Hahahah and then............. I dont know how to describe..!
Just good~~~~~~~ Like I said , yc have changed...
And I should stop being a brat myself everyday shouting and screaming to everyone close to me... * beep*
Aherm.. Hahahaha.. Anyway ..

We went to had lunch at Esquire Kitchen after the movie... We order quite alot of things =.=
2dishes, 1soup, 1 mee, 1 rice, 1 tao fu fa...Lmao..
I was bloated after the lunch..
During it ,my parents came to look for me...
Mummy asked " meitheng leh ? Go back le? "
I just nodded....
" meitheng didnt come is it? "
I didnt say anything
=p!

Anyway, I know my mum knows... But well lucky the both of them didnt say anything..
Didnt scold me or such..
Thank You Jesus! =D
Haha anyway, although today's time was short.. But I sure had a great day..
Im super happy... Like...
Yc damn lengzai today dont know why... Perhaps his hair..XD
I so wanted to camwhore with him... But no time..
I wore something cool today XD
to me... =p sexy, cool, yet elegant.. in my opinion =p!!!!!! hoho~
I didnt wanted yc to go when we had to go home T_T
I miss him! Haha
He pay for everything today =DDDD

Nice outing.. + his super nice attitude.. I cant forget this day~ Yuuhuu~ XD

Love u dear ^^

* I cannot use p/s this word... because meitheng says " ps I love you novel means paiseh I love you " LOL! *

Continuous from the previous post, when at first the teacher ask me whether I want to take exam or not..I was thinking..
Next year is my spm.. I would be busy-ing about projects, pekas, tuitions, and damn loads of studies..
I was afraid that.. If I get piano exams involve also.. I think I will be really stressed out???
I dont know..Now that I look back in my old book... I only realized I started piano at 10, not 12 XD and I almost finished grade 1 by that time. I stopped because of upsr, then the class where I was learning closed down. From then I never continued where I stopped.
But anyway... I dont know..I cant make up my mind whether or not to take exams..
Im afraid of upcoming busyness and much more exams with even much pressure?

Yc tell me to take exams after spm O__O lols... aiks =(
how?

A week more and its the holidays already!! Candid yc =X!! Aiks! I He cannot see this picture, or else he would kill me T_T haisyo.. I love to see him play guitar.. Lengzai ar =P

See those giraffe ears? XD hahah

Today they had mcd for breakfast O_O had this giraffe ears as the present? No idea XDJuang was wearing it.. and he looks like those.. ro npc XD ban kok wears it.. dont know he looka like what =X

Hanky yc bought!!! XD

I gotta cut my nails in a weeks time.. No more long nails this holidays =(!!!

Piano cannot have long nails! Wuwuwuwuw =(

As you can see... My new skin here.. is super colourful XD..
And my "important people" coloumn has vanished. xD
I addded a gifs coloumn XD because Im having fun here playing with gifs XD..
Im still thinking about the fonts on the hot pink sidebars..
Current fonts are "old english text".. at 1st i used other fonts from my computer..
It turns out that only computers who has downloaded the font can see it..
So I have to use common ones =(
and Im also wondering should I put the snowflakes falling..
and the size of my picture>>>>>>>>>> should it be big or small...
So basically other things are done =)
I want to choose a divider too.. between this 2.. which is nicer and more suitable for the blog??

Im kinda busy skin changing again =P
I found the skin I want.
But probably after I change I know most of you wont agree with me.
You probably like this one more =p
Anyway the reason I wanna change was
- Im bored with this one
- I want to post larger pictures.
Despite that I have a border here , i have limited space for photos.. =o
Anyway..
My first day of piano class was scary XDDD
You can say I abit scae of the tecaher lar..Perhaps I not guan lar...
xD
My nails T^T....... play piano oso cannot leave long de neh..sobby.. My nails! XD
DONT CARE =D
haha ciaoz.. Gotta do coding =)

Look at my post time... its 8.23 am.. Im not in school...Again =(
Im suppose to go to school today..
Yc is suppose to cook me fried rice today........
Im suppose to see him today.......................
=(
He never come.
Lucky this time he told me earlier.. So I didnt go to school and rot.
Sorry guys, I ffk-ed again..
His family got some prob this morning so his mum aint free to fetch him..
Haiz.. Im kinda disappointed and sad ..
a lil moody.. I wanted to go back to sleep..
But I felt like blogging somehow..
No point going to school if he didnt go.. because I'll rot there.. Nobody pei me de =.=
Haiz.. I wanted to see him so badly...
I was so excited about today.. and the food =D
I miss him =(

chaos~im going back to sleep T.T

Nothing..

I bet many of you , once you saw the title u want to scroll down away form this post or you want to clicked someone elses blog or you want to click back.
Its your choice whether you want to believe it or not .. or rather you want to read on or not =)
Admit it, I know the most of us never gets interested in religion right?
It sounds so boring.. something like studies. =p

You know.. God has been answering my prayers like EXPRESS FAST these three days.
Whether or not is it God, but I believe it is so.
I am a kicked back lazy ass person. Im even very lazy to do my quiet time and pray and actually read the Bible.
Like seriously Im very lazy to even stay up to pray =x
Part of the blog I think some of you wont understand.. because Im not being too specific here. So if you really want to know then ask me. =)

Before wednesday, I was always emo..always unhappy.. well not always but most of the time.
I wasnt happy with yc, because he was like so cold to me.
Not that he dosent love me, but just that he's too laid back in the comfort zone that I wont leave him. So and also he's lazy to accompany me and so on.
So I wasnt very happy about it.. I wanted his companionship.

On Tuesday night.. I prayed.. lying on my bed.. and so also with thrusday night, friday night, yesterday night.

I prayed about my dad...
Daddy had changed much recently.. back to his old temper.. and he dosent care much anymore in a sense that he only cares about HIS HEALTH and his health ONLY. Other things dosent seem that important to him. He always boast around too these days which I dont really like it. And like he leaves church before the service ends.. and its like he's no longer close to God.. Thats what I felt..and I really didnt like it.. and its like, the world is in a big crisis and I dont think he's even noticing it.. Too much in the comfort zone. I mean his health is important.. But he needs to care about family, business, and the most important his first priority must be God. My mum and me tried to tell him but he dosent wants to listen and gets all fuss up if we do.
If I tell him, he will say to me " you dont need to teach me how to live,you're just a kid"

Yea, so I told God to change him.. to make him realize that you can no more just sit there and mind your own business.. because now the world is going in so much of problems, we are to rise up now. ( sorry I know some of you dont understand what I meant here.. please ask me if you want to know more details =] ) I always pray that my dad will be more humble.. boasting around is not a good thing and is not what a christian or a person should do.

I prayed for mummy..
Mummy had high cholestrol much recently..cholestrol can lead to heart attacks and storke.
Fatal! I was afraid.. There was no one to cook us food.. I showed you my kitchen =) no one to buy us veges and food to cook neither. All we eat are outside foods. And I just already post about how food nowadays can be so dangerous and untrusted.. and what kind of oils they use now plays a role in our health. But we have no choice also.

I prayed that God will keep my mummy strong.. that He will grant her His strength to carry on to take her job as a mother and a wife who has contribute much to the company. I also prayed that God will find someone to help us cook. So that we no longer need to eat unhealthy food from outsides. That someone can cook for us everyday. So that our health would be better.

I prayed for Yc's salvation.
As some of you know.. me and yc can get into a big ass fight and arguement just because of religion. He dosent believes in mind.. he finds mine not logical and justical perhaps? For me, I protect it as much as it can from insults. So the both of us can argue over it and resulting a very bad situation like we did before.

I pray that.. the next time when I get an oppurtunity to talk to him about christian, I wont piss him off this time.I would speak the right words, and pray that the HS will guide me and speak through me. I also prayed that God will open his heart and touched him.

I also told God about my plans for cleaning up the house..
I ask God to provide my parents money to buy the big plastic boxes to keep all the stuffs in my messy study room. I told God to find someone to fix the toilet, the lights in the house, the insect-home garden of mine and the you know kitchen.
Yea and I prayed that my dad would be corperative enought to help out. He's always not helping out.

I prayed for Peiying and Sinyin..
I pray the both of them can come to youth camp =)

Ok.. I kinda forgot some, sorry T^T

Ok.. So on wednesday.. I'll keep this short.. although I didnt pray about my unhappiness about yc.. But for all of sudden a miracle happened. Details of the story please ask me.. =p Yc changed.. He really did.. He changed into a person which cares alot about me from who he was and who I was always complaining about. Huh? God changed him ? Perhaps.

I was having a chat with yc yesterdat at school.. Then he said he wanted to eat beef spag.. But he cant.. ( because he's sort of "kai" to guan yin ) Then I wanted to say something.. but didnt dare..then he ask me to say it.. Then I said.. Come to christian.. you can eat, you don need to follow these rules.
He said.. "ok ah" smiling face.
LOL! ok I know this is nothing much, but yc.. the yc I know would never agree with me.

Daddy today came back with a news that my mum's cholestrol was back to normal. Even lower than normal which is Good =)
and, the restaurant beside my parents office... my mum gave the olive oil and organic sea salt to cook the food we order.
They agreed. So most of the dinner we eat are from there, and they will cook will our good oil and salt.
I prayed for someone to cook for us, I didnt expected this XD.. but anyway at least now Im not so worried..

Daddy today agreed with me to clean the house. He promised to clean in thoroughly. Inside out =)

I think I forgot something lol... If I remember I will post it up here.. LOl.. I remember there were other answered prayers.. Sorry for forgetting T.T

But you see here.. just in three days.. almost half my prayers are answered. 1/4 perhaps.
Dont tell me its just so coincidence. Lol. What I prayed was actually answered.
Im just here to testify what God has done for me, and its your choice to believe it or not.
^^
However, God is still amazing.
Praise Him!
Amen.