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[o] Have the most special and wonderful, memorable sweet sixteen birthday bash ever in life~*
[x] Have a nice seventeen birthday~*
[o] Take a complete group picture ( with all form4 08) on my birthday!~*
[o] Straight A's for final exam 08~*
[ ] YESS overnight~*
[ ] Travelling with YESS~*
[ ] Cook meals~*
[x] Bake cake~*
[ ] Read and speak mandrin ~ Japanese fluently~*
[x] Eat vege without hesitating~*
[ ] Vaio Pink Laptop for 09's bday~ from parents*
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My parents had lemon lime tea. Amazing how this glass looks so outstanding from the background. It looks like Im doing some advert here. XD

Dad ordered Egg plant (brinjal) as their starters. guess how much it cost ?? rm18 for this 2 things =.=

The sight of potato wedges make me smile~ =) hahahaha.. So golden and tasty~ rm 12 O_O

Right so as for the dish , I had Chilean Salmon. Looks delicious right ? =p

As for my mum, she had Athena Lamb. It looks so cool =.= and unique. Hahaha. Mum says its nice. =)

I was so in to my food that i just forgot to take a picture of what my dad was having XDDD

we sat outside and just right at the spot where the sun shines on us XD so my photos turned out great without the help of my camera. I regretted not bringing it =(

Then we went to walked walked.. I saw Juicy Contour.. I so so so wanted to go in..

Then I was imagining how the price of the clothes would cost.. I gave up just walking past it and gazing over the clothes~ T.T

Dad was interested in buying watches so he was looking around the watch shop and I saw some of them at the windows.

Costing from 39k~162k

I could buy a car and a house with that WTF.

Its just meant for rich people. LOL
Finally I saw swatch and dragged my parents in. I like swatch watches somehow. At least it suites my age rather than those spensive old looking ones but classy =X

My mum caught an eye on a watch and tried it on. Then my dad pointed out another one which looks more classy. She ended up having a new watch today. =.= I want one tooo~~~

*after hearing this phrase please do not say " erica.. you want everything " . Yes I know that XD *

Camwhored in Pavilion =P

Ciaoss ~ ^^

Was reading PS, I love you just now.
Going to finish the book soon.
For those of you who read the book before, I read until the last envelope from Gerry.
I cried at that chapter.
Stupid~ ><
I miss yc now~ badly XD

Its raining everyday nowadays~ rain rain rain rain rain non stop~

What's life about ? =)
tell me~

Happy Birthday Ru!!
Haha..well yesterday was Yiru's birthday.. She came late to school..
Dont know is it purposely de ..
XD
Well then Kok Leong planned that during break time we will ask Yiru to treat us as it was her birthday yesterday..
Then the guys was suppose to hide under the covered tables in our class..
And when the bell rings we go back to class like nomal and the teacher is suppose to keep the class going like normal.

Ok so , after Yiru treat us , she went to the canteen to change money o.O
she was taking a long time there..
We went back to class then Tamil gave her her phone..
She blurred and ask Tamil why is it in his hands..
Tamil said it was on the table..
Then she received a long message from yong kang *who was obviously kok leong that wrote it *
She didnt even read and got all moody at sat at her table.. then after pressing her phone a little.. started to get more moody and wouldnt stand up to greet the teacher.. we signal them to come out now or else she burst into tears..

Before they even magane to come out SHE BAM~ out of the classroom and to the toilet..
Crying for I-dont-know-what-reason. XD
Finally after kang came in the toilet and she shoo-ed him out and I dont know why she came out of the toilet also XD perhaps someone persuaded her haha..
Well she was still sobbing a lil when we went back to class.. =.=
anyway skip that part I dont wanna talk about it =p

Then they took out the cake and sang Happy Brithday~

Ru, Lighting the candle once more =.=

Anyway We didnt have class yesterday~ Hilda gave a present to Yiru..

That is.. No STUDIES XD

Then I saw something sweet.. The Yiru I know who loves Finding Nemo so much XD.. Kang bought her the original disc of Finding Nemo.. Awww ... Eeew i sound disgusting XD... Ahahahaha~

After school we have tuition so before that we went to order pizza and spags $$.. oops wrong emo =DDDDD yea .. hahahaha..

I had pizza and Ling and Ru had spags.. While fries was sharie =x~

Then we got home , Mei Theng present Ru a Baskin Robin cake XD

smoke over the tables~~

yea.. Mr Toh kept making noise saying that breathing in carbon dioxide is no good and calling meitheng to take the THING away XDD..

So yeah thats about it =x.. Im kinda lazy to go on =x

Ooohhh... And Yiru , Your present would be given to you later.. I havent got the chance to go out. Sorry yeah =)

Time Time Time
Time and Space..
Space and Time..
Time is so bloody precious..
Oops.. Time is precious*
very .. very.. Time is gold..
And I bloody cannot manage my time properly.
Ok I will stop with that word.. Too much of PS, I love you book.

My dad thinks I so bloody free.
He bragss about me to clean the house everyday. Despite he was doing exercise everyday and flings his sweat all over the house.
Like shyte.
I tried so hard everyday to get my time management right.
To have time for studies, to have time for rest, to have time for entertainment and sleep and of course I have to do my quiet time.
It might be easy for you guys but not me , my time management sucks.

I come back finish eating,bathing,consuming daily needs, exercising ~ it would be 6+ by then.
starts studying till 9pm and gets my rest till 10pm.
10pm do quiet time till 1030 or so then i try to get my sleep.
Just trying.. I wouldnt fall asleep even if i was in bed.. Sigh~

Nevermind despite that I felt like I had to rush everyday even after when Im back home just so that I could have time for everything.
And this bloody .. oopps.. this rented house here is so big how could I even cleaned ? everyday ??? EVERYDAY ?????????????????
What the hell ? My dad dont even bother if he sees a rubbish on the floor.

He thinks Im so free.
I know I need to do chores.
I did cleaned my room hehe..
And Im so tired everyday coming back from school..
I know my parents are tired too I know..
and do you think Im happy loooking at my house at this condition ?
How I wish my house was like yc's? clean and tidy.. or like yiru and sinyin's.

I just didnt have the time.. The fact that I already dont have a good time management.
I pray everynight so that I could have manage my time better.
Im still failing to do it.
Dont tell me bout weekends. Its finally a day rest. If I dont rest now , I dont think I will ever get too in the future.
The older we are tthe busier we get.

K right Im whining here all the way.
I just couldnt get that prolem out of me just a moment ago.
I wanted to say so much tat I couldnt manage my time well and I really dont have the time to do it.

At least I know. Ac will start scolding me in my chatbox again XD

Right.. Before I get to my main topic for today , lets get my blog a lil updated with my life =x
1~
Yui Kanno!! my fav XD.. 2~

or you would prefer my old hair.. 3~

This is my friend Jasmine. I love her hair like lots XD.. preferrable ? 4~

Choose please =P

If you got any others available that you think its nice can email me or gimme the link of the photoz... thx =)

Pau ,
Pau .. Pau.. Pau is tasty..
When was the last time I ate you ?



Ok right .. I am so bored here..
And YES I tried studying .. Today's subject was Malay and English..
So I opened up my Bm workbooks and all..
And after like 10~15mins of reading cara membuat karangan and doing some exercise I was so bored of it..
BM is not an interesting subject for me =.= although I didnt felt sleepy but it is boring..
So next.. English..
I took out the books..
and starting reading..


*still reading* and decides to update my blog a little even if I have nothing to update about.

I can tell you.. My life is probably at the most boring part now .. I guess..
I have a good life .. and Im doing the same thing everyday..
Its boring , nothing to update about , nothing to say about .

Lols.. Anyway .. Let it be till here today.. tataz =)

Monday..

Today yc made me french toast + ham! My favourite..!
But somehow he made is tasteless...... LOL... the bread was tasteless..
And he ran out of normal hams at home..
yea.. no more normal hams..
So the ham was the healthy kind ham with no oil.. U just .. put hot water and let it stay there for awhile and its done... So.. I dont know la I tak biasa with the taste XD
anyway he stayed up whole night just because of this
He was afraid that he couldnt wake up the next day.. as u guys know.. his sleeping habit XD

So tada! Here it is~!




Oh.. and on sunday I didnt had enough sleep.. So my dark and big eye circles + eyebag gone really bad and i look like a... someone who hadnt sleep for 1oweeks.. LOL..
Hey Hey IM SERIOUS HERE ok ?! LOOK AT THIS..

beautiful aint it ? LOL! XD =x jk~

Yes , I know.

I have toooooo muchhhhh clothes.. CLothes CLOTHES.. and there are still some at the laundry ..

and Im stil not satisfied.. hmm ? Girls nature ? Or is it my mum's nature ? XD cause her wardrobe is at least double mine or more LOL! XD

Sinyin love to mess around with my wardrobe everytime she comes and visit or overnight..

Well.. that was then XD

now ? SHE gets so pissed off and fed up finding clothes in my cupboard XD because she needs to use full strength to push the clothes to one side to see what kind of shirt is that XD

Tommorow schools gonna have an eating party~ Oh yeah~ Im loving it.. Cant wait.. XD Cant wait!! XD hehe.. And next monday is holiday~ nyehehehe shopping again XD

Tata~ =P

After years and years after being alone at home most of the time..
I think I got use to the environment so much that I dont social with people that much anymore..
I enjoy more of being alone and only smsing yc.. because that has been my rountine for like years..
Like if I on my msn , most of the time I will be away..
OR if my cousin comes to my house.. I wish she quickly leave...
I'll be thinking that I have my own schedule plannned today so dont interrupt..
Im bad aint I ?

Sometimes I miss my parents really much..
I hope they come back earlier...
I only see them during morning when Im rushing to school and them rushing to work..
then I will see my dad when he comes to pick me up from school and stayss at home for 2~3hours like that..
Yea.. Thats why when people see me miss yc like mad when he sleeps thats the reason why..
I tend to talk to him everyday non-stop and suddenly he's not there to talk to me I feel so lonely and miserable.. hmm

dont know ? I dont know how to socialize with people so much nemore I guess..
Maybe if Sinyin was my neighbour then I might be entertained the whole day =/

Sometime hmm.. I think Jesus is here with me.. Just I dont wanna concentrate at Him..
Thats why I feeling lonely..
Lol chey I talking crap kan ? O.O

Haha..
Right now , my cousin just left , Yc is asleep I think , parents not home.
Homework not done. Hehe..

Im feeling lonely once again.

Get what I mean ? Salmon cooked in Thai Sweet Sauce. Yum~

Its Tony Roma's. One of the nicest place to eat steak. San Francisco is not bad too~ I love it XD

As for Chillis.. I dont really like it.. I dont know why.. Haha..

Anyway~uhm...erm.. I seriously had nothing to blog..

Today's rain was so heavy that my shoe got all wet and I had to walk with it in midvalley.

Wth XD

erm.. gonna go clean my room now..

Would.. Maybe~ update something interesting tommorow~ haha

Babies cry and want milk.
I dont want milk, I want food.
I keep making these sounds at home when I alone.
* Naku maku nakuma makuma kuna naku makana "
And I dont know why =.=

I want to go back to school ~
Im shit bored at home and people has been so busy with outings whereas I busy at home doing my stuff and Im still bored.
Ok crap.
I mean I have planned what I wanna do this holiday and I ended up spending most of the time... dreaming @@~
Stupid.

At least during school days I will study.. Holidays, I never open books at all. =D
Gawd~ Let me go back to school XD
Im bored T_T

Can you see the time on my phone xD

Anyway the next day we have tuition and Mr Toh was suppose to come at 12.
Ended up he coming at 1pm and that means we are going to end our tuition at 3pm which also means : no more time to shop. =(~! GERAM.
After the tuition , I was waiting for sinyin and suzanne to be back and waiting for my mum to come and fetch us. I was sitting at the stairs calming down and feeling the breeze. Kinda nice though XD

The view from where I sat.

I manage to snap this photo with my z610i and so its a very low quality picture.

But anyway everyone was crowding at the railings so I only get a fast chance of snapping when I was on the elevator. Haha pretty huh ?

Then we were waiting for my dad to come and fetch us. The heavy jam took dad an hour to reach.

When we were in the car a police guy came honk-ing and call us to " pergi kiri "

Then we wondered what happen or who the heck rich guy is going to come through.

Stuking in the jam, a nice big benz car was jamming beside us. Mum asked dad to look out to see whether who is it.

After seconds of looking and recognizing it was...

Dr Mahathir HIMSELF and his wife XD!!!!!!

HE WAS RIGHT BESIDE MY CAR LOL!

Dad wave and said hi to him. And HE WAVE BACK WITH A SMILE AND SAID HI TOO !!! LOL!!!

Lucky us! XD what a night XD

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And..

And..

And..

And..

And..

TADA!

My baby reached my home this Wednesday aka YC Birthday O.O

Yeah~

I've been whining in a few post saying I wanted to learn piano right.

But then I dont have a piano at home. So after I grumble alot of times to my parents saying I wanna learn it so badly they bought me this =)

Its a key-lighting one though. I know its a lil-childish but I wanted a key-lighting one since I was a kid.

Its casio. XD I like yamaha's clavinova XD which cost around 10k. And I think I will get it one day when I am really rich XD. And thats... when I dont know when XD

The picture is quite low in quality too but I did snap it with my camera 2days ago with the piano on and with the lights and all XD. My camera has empty batt now and Im lazy to wait for it to charge XD

LOVE IT. x3~

That's all for today o.O

Love my star pillow XD

K.. the title has nothing to do with th post today =.=
I am so freaking bored here and dont know what to do ~ @@

Though.. I love this phrase.. Just had it in my mind yesterday..
To dust, I will hate you
To death, I will love you
I dont know what it exactly means.. But I think I meant :
If I hate you, I will hate you till you're dead and had turned to dust.
If I love you I will love you to the death of mine. O.o
I guess so XD

Anyway Im rotting here =.=~
People tell me go study..
Like hell I would get anything into my mind.. Im so sleepy and lazy now..
You tell me go sleep ~
Later I at night cannot sleep then jialat hahaha..

Tommorow we are going outing~ Syok ~
haiz.. Sien ler..........
SIEN ler...
SIENNNNNN .... =.=

byebye la =.= i dont know what to blog~ sorry T.T

How many times had I mention this feeling?
U guys can check out some of my oldest post titled "emptyness"
Everytime I had an agruement with yc and that he says he wants to leave me, or then he says he dosent love me.
The words he said always hurts me so much.
And~ resulting now I lost my sense of love and protection from him.
Aiks
It always happen.
Lol..

Of everything , time would only tell the truth.
And of all our actions will therefore make out our future.

Yea.. Anyways everything is fine again.
Like what the shitcrap is happening wei~
Lol always like this =.=~
But.............
Im emo... Because I din took a picture with him to day for his birthday T_T!!! lols crapshit =.=

Anyway..

Happy Birthday dear dear! ^^

Yesterday zanne came to my house and i finally manage to get the photoz from her camera =.=
After months and months =.=

Anyway , here are them

Me & Zanne XD

Me & Zanne again XD

From left : Juang, Yin, Alex, Ca, Zanne

Sinyin's Birthday~*

YESS!! Ru, Yin, Ca, Zanne!

Yin & her cake! XD

Yum Yum~ Cake!! XD

Ac was lonely, This was his only friend >.<

hahahahahahahahahahaha

Carnival SSM 2008~*

Rushing to make sushi!! XD yum ?

Help help >.<

Our stall~

Sushi ready to sell!!

Our drinks that are available XD

Aaron Vs Mr Toh O.o~

BUY HER xDDD~ rm 0.50!! LOL!

Memories ^^

I think.. I lost my sense of joy ?
I mean... I think I've lost my more-than-half-filled-joy in me???
I've been emo-ing so much and crying so much..
Little do I know that I've been losing my joy little by little..
I tend to smile less , laugh less and think more negative things.

and my temper just rise at any temperature.. =x
Lil bit thing only it goes boom boom boom!!
BOOOOOMM..
My gawd..
I need to smile more..
I need to be more happy..
=(
oops no no no no no is
=) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) =)

Everything is starting to go fine now..
My life , friends, family, dear..
I need to change too..
Too be more open minded and..
more happy!!
and I cannot worry so much!!!!

HappyHappyHappyHappyHappyHappyHappyHappyHappyHappyHappyHappyHappyHappyHappy HApPy HapPy happY !@#$%^&*~ =x

H A P P Y

yea.. I need to lead a simple and happy-go-lucky life?
I've been so pressured.. I mean sendiri pressure sendiri that Im gonna go insane.
Somemore i look so tired everyday and so ugly =.=

OK shitty..
Erica~
Happy~
Dont Worry~
SMILE
LAUGH~
WARAI!! =.=

I sound so .. weird.. =.=

SMILE LIKE THIS!!!! XD haha

pretty leh !!! =.= shit XD at least its better than a '=('

^^

Me and yc ok le...
Haha.. Another problem that brings a realization to me of "something" and a realization of him to not treat me this way ~ =)

Anyway.. From all what you guys eyes can see ,
Im very blessed..
God blessed me with a wonderful life..
Whether you believe its God or not but I am really blessed..

Dad bought me something I really wanted today,
and when he was heading back to office, before he left home , he said
" Jesus must have loved you very much , have you been unhappy ? He must have saw you unhappy, and now blessed you with something you wanted "
This phrase of word really touch my heart and borught me to a realization also.
I really was unhappy these few days.

Now..as for the topic today,
I know my parents love me very much..
and they want the best for me..
I realize that now..
I know and understand why they disagree me having a bf..
Not disagree , but just they keep advising me not to ..
I understand..

They are afraid that I will get hurt and lost interest in studies
They are afraid that my future will be destroy because my freedom is locked because of all the relatioships..
They just want the best for me..
All of that I understand..
And I realize I am still young..

But I also know that no matter for a friend or a boyfriend ,
I take yc as a very important person in my life now..
His level is as same as my beloved Sinyin..
For now I know I cannot let go of him..
If he's really not the right one , I know one day we will end in a very peaceful way and that the both of us will agree breaking up =)
So, I wanted to tell my parents this ,
But I, not sure whether they will agree with me or not..
Im not daring to tell them about it..

I love my studies ..
I love alot of things ,
and I know very strongly I would not be affected by him
Sometimes yes he might affect me , but at the end I stand back firm again on my own priorities.
He dosent affect me in my love for studies and for God.

What do you guys think ?
My parents talk to me about these things in a very calm way..
But still Im not sure of telling them about my decision..

I just want to tell them..
" I cannot let go of yc now.. No matter how young u say I am , or you say the way I think about this is still immature , but I know he is someone very important to me.
If he's really not the one , I know God would let me and him end in a very peaceful way and none of us would be very hurt by it , I hope you guys understand and would support my decision. I would concentrate on my studies dont worry, I would not be affected "

I love yc =P
I love him alot ~
Why ? Because I really had joy in being with him.
At least he did change me for the good which I appreciate.
Ca eat vege is a very hard thing to achieve u know?! XD
I believe , time would tell everything.
And God will plan the road for me.
So its nothing to be worry about =p

So, Mum and Dad.. I love you. And hope you guys would understand how I want to walk this road.
But in other words , I hope God will guide and plan my road instead of me planning for myself.

And Yung Cieh.. dear~ If you're reading this ~ I want to tell you.. I love you ^^
Dont worry~ I wont leave you ~ =P
wo bu hui damdai ni! Wo yi ding hui yong yuan ai ni! ^^

My life..
My life..
My life..

My life , I want to try my best to be a person which is highly valued XD
joking~

Haha..My slogan

"The Sweet Yet Bitter Life"

is very appropriate for me ..

My life is so sweet at times,
as sweet as honey,
as sugary as sugar,
as tasty as lollipop,
and I hope it never stops.

Then at times it really hurts me alot
Like my heart has been stab by thousands and millions of sharp things.

My life is bitter for when dark comes ,
millions of sharp edges will come stabing through me,
and then now I think back of the sweet times I had ,
hoping that I get to go back in time and stay there.

Nevertheless that would not happen ,
but the hurts keep coming non stopingly,
For I taste bitter like tasting my own death without peace.

Its so sweet ,
Yet is so very bitter.

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Ok.. this lil crapshit / bullshit / shitshit of shit has been faking me for months and months after reports and reports i send which is practically useless is still now faking me =.=
I cannot take this anymore.. what so nice in faking me ? =.=
Anyone who is reading this now if u would kindly be good and help me rpoet this piece of crap ?
Please And Thank You ~*

Right..
U know.. alot people is calling me to change
To change my little bad temeper of mine which go KAboOoOm if u twicth it on a lil XD
to change my rudeness and "only-daughter character"
XD

Yes Yes.. I wanna change too..
If it was that easy ~
I wanna change
And im trying so hard to change
Time after time I tried
And I fail..
Its not that easy to change..
Which my parents think it is.. =.=

I try alot of times to comtrol..
Control my temper..
Control..
But it's been my nature for more than a decade or should I say since birth.
So its not that ever easy to change.
And I am trying the best that I could.
Trying to cope up with everything is hard.

I did change .. But my character hasnt reach its level yet..
So i just hope that u people those who wanted me to change to wait..
Cause Im trying with all that I could to change and control my self..
Its needs alot of time..
Im sorry ~~ ><

By the way.. Im not emo-ing~ lol..

What is YESS ?

Who is YESS ??

Here I present YESS MEMBERS =)

I love this photo xD.. gives me a nostalgic feeling~ =)

Now

~Sinyin , if you want the photoz for last sat's outing pls sms me then I will send it to you. I wont be posting up here.~

Seriously.. these days.. I dont know what to blog.

Alot has happenned, too much for me to say , too much for me to feel.

I was really stress out though.. Even though it might be a small matter for some.

But then now Im trying to cope with it.

God talk through the Pastor yesterday in church.. " Focus on Him and not on the problems we are facing, If not we will sink more because on focusing too much on the problems. "

School

Lol.. ^^.. School's been normal.

Bored as usual.. Photo session today and wednesday..

hmm.. am trying to study now.. U know~ XD s t u d y ? XD

Family

Lonely as usual ? =p

Mum and dad as busy as usual.

As disagree of me and yc as usual.

i Care-less about it.

Me and Yc

Not much of arguements anymore.

Very happy =)

am progressing good.

Me

I love me.

Me is happy.

Although alot is going on.

But I have God and His word's

Im fine.

DAIJOUBU!

NEXT

So.. what more should i update?

Oh !! ya!

Anyone knows how to bake cakes?

Anyone who knows and can help me please contact me!!

Need it urgent ANY DAY before 20/8/08

k? =)