@.@
"Tuesday, April 29, 2008" • 5:24 PM writes:
I delete the last post.. lai yeh ad still wan post meh ? right?
I just wanna highlight this part of the post..
What am i always so worried about?
If yc chats close with a friend online.. OR sms.. Or phone calls..
Maybe one day he will get bored of me and look for her~them
When we argue he gets moody he will looks for her~them
When he's bored he will look for her~them..
When at times he will think of her~them
When there comes the time im no longer important..
Maybe.. Maybe.. Maybe.. everything is a maybe..
And this..
It really sounds like im locking him up..
He can only have me to chat with..
He can only have me.. the only girl..
Others are not allow to be friends unless form4's..
Sounds that im so selfish.. Im locking his freedom.. right?
Lol God bless ca~~
As the music fades..
I will try to let our love fade too~*
~
♥~EriCa~♥
Cars~~~~ O___O
"Sunday, April 27, 2008" • 10:32 AM writes:
On this sunny morning , saturday~ while i was having my beauty sleep when my mom called
" erica get up now and get ready! Im bringing you out ! "
Sob! It was 12pm!! I could have slept more later~ Sleeping is FUN XD
Well anyways when i got into the car my mum was blabberring about some cars she saw just now.. Eg Porshe , Toyota Soarer~ And she was saying how nice was it..~ blabla hahaha
I was having a long journey to Shah Alam.. And i havent even ate anything for breakfast T_T
*starves to death* lmao haha..
~Reaching~
O__O I saw a real BIG building~ looks like an airport!! No~!!! Its a bird!! = __ =
its the HQ of proton cars i think.. But yea its the Big Role Part building of Proton company =D
This is just one part of it~ its still so much longer.. XD
The sun was so scorching hot today day =_=
its burning me.. Like im being roasted in the oven of 70degrees T_T
Gawd.. Walked up the Stairs and.. I... saw.. a LOTUS~! Damn nice car~ but.. Its a race car..
Like F1 those kind o_O
Seats are touching the ground.. And its like so hard to get in.. There were 3 there~ Black, Red, and Metalic Grey.. The red one was Europa S if i didnt remember wrongly..
It was a nice car.. But i dont think it would suit my dad.. Cause its really small.. And its a 2 sitter.. Where's my sit?! XD And also its like those F1 cars.. Not suitable for road driving~ Well.. That's my opinion =D
Its this big~ @@
The Europa S~ nice?
Lotus~*
Yes! Its damn nice. I know. My dad loves this colour =D
My dad looks like a cartoon inside it = =
After looking at the lotus~ Dad bought me to Summit USJ to eat steak~ Cause yeah..
IM STARVING TO DEATH =(
I had salmon~ The steak was NOT NICE at all and it dosent look delicious. It cost me RM28..
What a waste.
Ok.. went back to Serdang to have a look on the Porshe, Soarer and Fairlady.
Wondered how the Soarer looks like cause my mum was so amazed by it o.o"
The Fairlady no longer takes my interest anymore. It looks normal to me now XD
Cause its like the whole road of Malaysia its full with it. I can almost see it everytime I go out.
Fairlday lost its uniqueness in me XD
As for the Porshe, it was the Porshe Boxter which my uncle have now.
Lol lost its uniqueness in me too. Cause I see it often. I dont find it nice anymore~ =p
And the seats are black , the gadgets are BLACK too. So it makes the inside of the car so dull.
Answer from me : NO. I dont like this car =D
Boxter S~*
Look! Its all black.. and boring =x
The front looks nice tho~
As for the Toyota Soarer, yea It amazed me as much as it amazed my mom. ^^
Though.. I never really heard of this car. And its not common in read. That take my interest =D
But from people hearing 'Toyota' they would attempt to have a mindset that its just a normal car. But I tell you , its amazing XD in looks as well as in gadgets =D
Its those compatible cars where you can open the whole roof of the car..
And when you like 'click' the button to close the car roof, its extremely cool..
You gotta see it to believe it. Its really nice!!
It looks luxurious too from the outside and form the inside. Its leather seat wif seat colour that matches the car ~
Everything in the car is AUTOMATIC~ Like those where you out your drinks , in one 'click' it auto come out.
Dont know how to describe it But its automatic opening everything in car =D
Yea.. I love it~ Love it very much XD
Toyota Soarer~*
The front part.. Looks luxurious right ? Like benz XD
The gadgets =DD totally amazing
But just one problem.. The income tax of the car per year is Rm7000!! means a month would be RM500+ i guess.. That would be like paying for a Kenari!! I could buy a Kancil every year with that amount of income tax that i have to pay =3=
Went back home.. Tired and restless.. I need some sleep =D oyasumi~ ^^
Took this picture on the way back. Yea.. Looks at those eyebags. Gawd help me =(
As the music fades..
I will try to let our love fade too~*
~
♥~EriCa~♥
Lalalala~~*
"Thursday, April 24, 2008" • 11:55 AM writes:
Rarrrrrr.............booooooooooooo~
i thought of blogging today.. but seriously my eyes kept closing..
Im very tired =(
I din get enough sleep last night as * someting had occured *
its been alot of days i din post anything..
so i wanted to retink back and write..
end up me wanting to sleep now~
so i will skip everything =P and save for tommorow~
as for now.. Oyasumi~ i mao tidur XD
.JPG)
Btw~ i like this photo =x sotplak look XD Ca ^^
It would be the end of rainbows..
It would be the end of everything..
If our love ends. Loves You. So Much~*
::EriCa::
As the music fades..
I will try to let our love fade too~*
~
♥~EriCa~♥
Tracy birthday celebration!!!! ^^
"Wednesday, April 23, 2008" • 8:40 AM writes:
Finally the day had arrived~ Everyone brought their pressies.. hiding it under the table in our class which is covered by table cloths =D
When reached school at morning.. Kang they all were crowding the gates alredy = =
They were waiting for kok leong to come.. then take taxi to yc's house lmao~
Haha then leong reached.. Hugging a BIGGGGG mickey~~~~~~~~~~~~ XD
Since tracy havent come.. They all faster run run run!! XD in case tracy saw the presents XD
~fyi~ tracy loves mickey
Haha.. after they went tracy came.. again.. with a sad face..
after she knew that leong din come to school..
she got more sad and keep dreaming all the time @@..
omg? haha.. then it was about 11pm..
They came O_O carrying foods~
Spag cooked by leong and whole lots of kfcs~ XD
And i do mean alot of spag @@
Tracy saw leong came.. she was so shock XD
she havent know that there is a party awaiting her =D
Lunch time came.. ru went to accompany tracy go down while me and kaling were running here and there hiding the presents in 4m XD
Tracy went down..
Hoho~ SUPRISE!! wakak the shocking face XD.. So many foods ++ her bf homemade spag~ XD
Haha eat eat eat eat!! she havent know that there are cakes and presents ready for her =DD
But she was so happy that we all celebrated with her ^^
Then times up~ When back to class.. teacher was there.. no one was in class cause they were cleaning up..
Then..
Happy birthday to you~ Happy birthday to Tracy~
Cake!! xD and one big mickey! So sweet eh~ leong was taking the cake for her.. awww ..
From one side of the corridor walking into our class with her cake singing to her =DD
Her cake!! i din rotate the photo XD
Yiru blocking tracy's face XD .. see the big mickey ? and leong taking cake for tracy =D
Tracy cutting cake! XD
The big mickey~ haha
Her pressies~ see so many mickeys haha~ the shirt was given by us * ctrl + alex ^^
She was so happy =D Happy birthday Tracy ^^ sorry for yesterday and suprise!! =]
It would be the end of rainbows..
It would be the end of everything..
If our love ends. Loves You. So Much~*
::EriCa::
As the music fades..
I will try to let our love fade too~*
~
♥~EriCa~♥
Tracy's actual birthday ~ @@
"Tuesday, April 22, 2008" • 7:24 AM writes:
The actual birthday eh? was a
sad day for her =(
Haha.. reached in the morning.. bk told me he brought her present =__=
We postponed her celebration because today alot of parents need to come to see the principle..
including mine =D
We need to act that we dont remember nothing about
'today is her birthday' thingy~ haha.. hard task ??
Went up to class.. dont know how to face tracy =(
she was like having a
expecting look for us to wish her.. ending up none.
She was like disappointed.. sad.. T.T
Then kok leong came in.. Also~ not wishing her..
+++ de sad.. cause bf also didnt wish her omg.. hahah
Then class started.. at least she stil can laugh abit.. But still she keeps laying down her head
facing down..As if she was crying.. aww.. pity =( We didnt know whether she was really crying anot but.. still.. sad..
Imagine..
None of your friends remeber your birthday at all.. sighs~
haha..
Ohwell.. at least througout the whole day i saw her still can laugh then feel more relieve le..
Haha.. we played with
fertilisers day = =
.JPG)
The packege~ colourful eh ?
.JPG)
1st step~ into the water ^^
.JPG)
After sometime.. they expand~ haha cute huh ? XD
Rajan talk some
crap into my parents brain making them scolding me
straight for 2 days.. And fyi..
Rajan told them im with yc.. zzzzzzzzzzz...
which they think that
yc n yiru is influencing me to become a bad student =___=
they even said
my tuck in looks like 'lala' which is just ridiculous..
They just dont understand the fact that their
century of fashion is over ... @@..
Argh.. stupid day..
It would be the end of rainbows..
It would be the end of everything..
If our love ends. Loves You. So Much~*
::EriCa::
As the music fades..
I will try to let our love fade too~*
~
♥~EriCa~♥
1st year anniversary celebration! XD
"Monday, April 21, 2008" • 10:14 AM writes:
Today today today~~
today was suppose to b the celebrating day for out
1st year anniversary ^^
~14 april 2007~Yc came to my house =) *yays* ^^
and he brought.. fried rice ~ which he cooked in the morning =D
Fried rice!!! ^^
I guess he put too much ingredients XD..
You can c there are hot dogs, bacon pieces, crab meat and eggs and the basic veges ~peas,corn,carrot~ haha
BUT! yet~ its very tasty eh!! haha seriously ^^
thnk u dearr~~~
It was about 12pm i think when i finished eating it.. then i said i wanted to make him sushi =D
my 1st attempt ^^.. made it together..
Lol my back kitchen was very scary lmao.. there were cockroaches *dead* and mosquitoes.. even worms Hahahahahaha~~ cause no one cooks at home.. and the back kitchen was left dirty and not cared for quite sometime *omg*
Yc on the fire and i stir the eggs~ ok.. the egg part was him doing it cause i was too afraid of the fire =X~ 1st attempt ward.. dont blame me =p
wakaka then cut the carrot and cucumber..
Hahah.. he was so scare that I will cut myself at 1st and he showed me how to cut o.O"
Haha then after that eveything was me =D
The rice was a lil bit too sour~ XD i put too mcuh vinegar =(
Lol~ the wrapping was.. kinda a failure XD cause ..
1st layer : rice
2nd layer : Egg
3rd layer : carrot , cucuy , crabmeat
It was so big that my hands could not grab it XD so the wrapping was quite loose..
The ingredients and tools XD
loose huh ? ahah
Tada~! ^^
Yc say~ no mayo no taste~~ O_O failure again =(
my mum say too loose haha..
Oh well~ after finishing its was about 3pm dy..
Went upstairs to chat chat lu.. haha
5pm : while we were chatting syokly... i heard... *Brooommmm~~~*
ca's expression : O.O"
ca's reaction : OMFG ITS MY DAD
LMAO~ my parents were back O_____O
cause usually there come back home very very late.. so i never cared =x
ran down~ close my room door.. and open the door for parents..
Ca : mamii.. no go back to office le ?
Mamii : no more le.. all the lorries came back already~
Ca's mind thoughts : *OMFGGGGG*
Hahahaha!! then i ran upstairs.. yc was behind my room door.. xD both of us was like Lmao-ing =x then i said.. dont worry.. i got a plan =X~
Went down again.. my mum was washing dishes.. then i ask..
~Mii.. can go help me buy reload card ?~
~ i wanna sleep.. later bah~
*sighs* XD
then my dad was outside.. wiping car =________=
ohwell i went up again.. waiting for then to done doing thier work..
And went down again after awhile @@.. mum finish washing dishes.. went upstairs and slept =D
dad pulak.. ON COMPUTER!!! O____O he was paying some bills online..
i was like OH SHIT.. haha cause my dad likes to look at car stuffs for hours XD
Went up.. Yc mum call O_O
Yc mum : You still dont want go back ar ?! what you doing?? what time you want back ? *scolding tone * i could hear it @@"
Yc : erm... erm... erm.. i take taxi back lar.. i watching movie..
Yc mum : NO! dangerous.. Call me when your done.
So we sat there... thinking how can he go out XD
yc looked at my window.. and asked.. * can i jump from here ? *
LOL.. HECK NO~ ? it was so high XD and if neighbours saw him would think he's a thief or something haha..
Then idea came.. i thought of calling my dad go buy some bread and kaya + batteries hahah..
Yc was holding his phone hoping that his mom wont call XD
I went down.. 6pm~
Ca : dii.. can go buy bread?
Dii : later at night lar.. i now wanna go bath and sleep..
Ca : now 6om dy wor.. still dont want go bath ar?
Dii : im coming.. wait..
Went back up.. waited for 15minutes.. Nothing @_@
Went back down.. ~ dii.. still dont want ?~ ~ok.. now i go~
He went upstairs.. he sat on the bed.. EATING AND WATCHING TV.. LMAO~~~~~
then i was in room waiting with yc for him to go to bath.. i heard a closing door noice..
dad went out the balcony to smoke..
I call yc *go! go! go!* runs down the stairs with a terrified face XD ~yc~
in! my computer room haha..
den another closing door noice.. dad went to bath ~^^
i went up... ~dii.. can i go to your car and take some cds?~ ~yea sure~
Quickly ran down open the doors open the car.. called yc and call him out~!
Yc's reaction : i finally can see daylight~ lmao~!
Open the gate and he ran~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~!!!
XD i pretended to open the car door and close it back.. wakakak
hahah!! amazing adventure? XD lmao lar!! hahah... so farniie XD
Great day too ^^
wakaka maks dear ~ ^^ his mum din scold him neither when he went back =DD
It would be the end of rainbows..
It would be the end of everything..
If out love ends. Loves You. So Much~*
::EriCa::
As the music fades..
I will try to let our love fade too~*
~
♥~EriCa~♥
Exam!
"Monday, April 14, 2008" • 11:08 AM writes:
Wont be online for
a week ^^ blog vil b updated on
19 april =D Exam!! Must
gambateh!! I must
prove to everyone that i can get
good marks even though im
coupling =PP all
support me!! put support at
chat box =p LOL! jk~ hahaha ^^
It would be the end of rainbows..
It would be the end of everything..
If our love ends. Loves You. So Much~*
:: EriCa ::
As the music fades..
I will try to let our love fade too~*
~
♥~EriCa~♥
Great day~* 12.4.08
"Sunday, April 13, 2008" • 8:49 AM writes:
Yiru~ Send me the photos when Jason usb ad~Lacking of photos~ will be uploaded when received.Please proceed to the bottom of my blog to watch the video and slideshow of dance =DToday is the
excellence award day~ reach there very early XD
Kok leong told me the wrong song to burn so had to like fetch sinyin , get the empty disc n burn it in car = = mafan hahaha
Next we found out that kok leong trim the song wrongly also~ so.. YES it wasted all my effort lol~
So.. they were figuring out how to finish the Long song and trying to think of the ending~
Then when they were practising kok leong was lazy to dance..
Sinyin was so interested in seeing their dance and kok leong was like
" you wanna see ah ? "
" dont want let you see =P "
Haha.. Suzanne , kennie , wenwu came~
Then we went up waiting for their turn.. We go just to only watch thier perfomance and go back~
After all.. they are the best group =D
The rajan shoo-ed everyone without unis' and said students not involved should not come.
Excuse me? Lol~ its a school event.. They could come to enjoy the performances right?
what's wrong with that ? If only students involved are allow.. Then the hall would b empty like shit = =
Then they finished their steps and came up.. roaming around the back and took pictures Lol~
They were all white wei XD pro~ hahaha and yea~ lengzais~ hahaha
Yoges, Ken Nie, Juang, Wen Wu, Kavi~*
Juang N Kok Ken~* I like this photo wei..
Kok Ken~* act yeng - -'
Juang also.. Macam 'L' eh him - -
Then..
The dance.. WOoo!!! everybody was looking forward to it ONLY.. i guess majority of it =P
Took pictures again! LOL
Socai look XD
Juang~Yoges~Bk
All act L ?
Alex~Juang*
Alex show skill XD
Alex~Juang~ Kok Ken~ Yoges
Everything ended.. Yc all go da gei at sglong.. And today is the day!
Alex is teaching me how to make sushi at kaling's house ^^
The very ' zhao dou' de alex very geng XD does everything in sequence and does not make a mess.. haha
And the way he make sushi hahah... its easy to understand.. now i know how to make le!! haha
Even tried to fried eggs on my own?! Lol =p i never cooked before so dont blame me =P
We were lagging of ingredients.. So.. we only used carrot and egg XD..
And the carrot was so hard so.. looks k-yeng when we cut it hahah
The egg i made =P
SuShi~! The nice ones are mine = = serious Lol 
Leftover carrots to be eaten raw XD
ling n alex were eating it..
they look like rabbits XD
We finished the sushi fast. Then went to leisure to watch L XD
Before that we had lunch at Wong kok~
And sinyin wanted to sit at the most top floor
And we were joking saying that lik kids like her cannot go in the top floor..
Unknown-wingly ourselves were walking up the stairs where they wrote ' VIP' which we didnt see until we reach the door and it says 'VIP' LOL~ v were laughing all the way then we saw kenn they all at there..
VIP~
Alex having his 'zhu pa' dish XD
Cheese-baked rice~ yum XD
After eating~ when to watch the movie.. And there was this guy keep saying 'swt' very loud for no reason.. And it was annoying me so much i wanted to stand up and call him shut up.. The voice sounded like ruben.. but i think.. its impossible.. then they threw popcorn at me somore = =
When the movie ended.. they shouted 'Erica!' and swt! yes its really ruben.. so incoincidence we sat the row infront of them = =
After eating~ we thought of going to giant to search for more ingredients for sushi.. But we had bags on so we cant go in.. Ended up eating mcd~
Fries * nuggets~
Well did alot of things today..
Go to school , meet up wif friends , made sushi , watched movie , ate alot of stuffs XD
It would be the end of rainbows..
It would be the end of everything..
If our love ends. Loves You. So Much~*
:: EriCa ::
As the music fades..
I will try to let our love fade too~*
~
♥~EriCa~♥
Chocolate~~*
"Thursday, April 10, 2008" • 11:09 AM writes:
Yes! Chocolates! ^^
His mom came back from japan.. He said he call his mum to buy one box FOR me..
Limited-edition japan chocs!! Omgawddd... Happy die me lorrrrrrrr.... hahaha =p
The box ~*
Nice right?! omgg.. so many XD
Chocs~~~~ @@
And this!! ^^
His mom bought him alot of snacks..
This is one of them.. from tokyo disneyland XD mickey choc biscuits! XD tasty wei wakaka..
And the packing is nice XD haha i didnt wanted to open it at 1st =DD
They were having the excellence award rehersal the whole day~ so.. yeah no studies =]]
Like prisoners~ *kaling* wrong emo ( she looks lonely )
Kok leong they all had dancing practices up stage..
The whole hall was filled with people when they dance LOL..
They were the best group among all the perfomances~
And everyone was taking their phones to video them.. After thier dance ended everyone left the hall LOL~ incredible =D
They were not bad even though they did not learn before.
Everyone was like
' Did they learn before? '
' why they so pro one? '
Well yea.. thier dance was nice.. i liked it too ^^
proud of them also~ Good job guys ^^
I dont believe in having bad luck going under the ladder =D
( fyi : meitheng's here to overnight~ having pressure typing my blog XD she's staring at me T.T )
It would be the end of rainbows..
It wouldbe the end of everything..
If our love ends. Loves You. So Much~*
:: EriCa ::
As the music fades..
I will try to let our love fade too~*
~
♥~EriCa~♥
Hong Dao Shui?! haha ^^
"Tuesday, April 8, 2008" • 9:52 PM writes:
Yeahh~! Yeahh~!
Super happy today =D
Then now..
ABIT.. just
abit.. emo hahahah.. Im forever emo~ XD
Yeah~!! yc made the '
hong dao shui + hong dao sa tong yun' yesterday~ haha
and i call him to bring me some..
Yeah!! and he
did~ sweet~ ^^ hahaha.. abit perasan eh me?
But im already damn happy for that~Hahaha ^^
sweet sweet~ although he put too much sugar.. lol..
the tong shui was
very sweet + my heart's feeling
sweet is really
over sweet..
too high sugar level ?! Hahahah sot! i love it no matter what =PP
(
fyi : i really love to eat tong yun.. and i missed it 2years.. never ate it since a long time.. so it makes me more happy XD )
The tong shui!! ++ tong yun ^^
Maks dear!! =D
Haha the emo part was.. eek he kept saying about the lenglui at form1~
Im jelez hehs =D
very obvious =DD
I was like ROARING in my mind hahah!!
Thinking.. If ure not satisfied with me.. im gonna wear contacts during school days..
ROARS AGAIN~ now am i up to your standard of prettyness to be ur gf ?
Haha.. my brain can amazingly think too much things XD mind me~ hahaha
Ohwell......................... i was always thinking if he kept staring at the girl , the girl might think he likes her.. ++ she looks like those lala mui a lil.. Im so dead XD later she rampas from me how?!
Haha adding on, Yc have the looks~ wakakaka =X mind me mind me~ heheh.. she might or would fall for him.. Omgawd again! XD
Thinking too much~ rawrrrrrrrr..~!
Yc i love u!! 1st year anniversary coming.. Gotta go finish up the book i wanted to give him^^
Would blog the book pic up here when im done =D
It would be the end of rainbows..
It would be the end of everything..
If our love ends. Loves You. So Much~*
:: EriCa ::
As the music fades..
I will try to let our love fade too~*
~
♥~EriCa~♥
7.4.08 * Pathetic Day
"" • 8:00 AM writes:
This is a
Boring and
Plain post for today~
Haha.. just felt like blogging~
Woke up early in the morning with a
bad stomachache.. Gawd!
i mean really bad.. and i had to like sit during assembly~
legs were
wobbly sobs. I guess it was the korean mee i had yesterday..
Very spicy =D
Then after assembly~ saw til the whole 4m gang running in..
with nervous faces and also sweaty..
Lols.. they were running in school~ haha funny eh? instead of running
out they ran
in.
Lol skipped everything. Im
depressed =(
I dont want yc to leave school. I want him to stay.If not , i wud have no more chance to see him
anymore.Rather there is chance but just very seldom..
so why not appreciate this chance when we can see each other everyday ?
He say tuition is better than studying in school.
I wonder what's the difference. Whatever it is i just dont want him to leave.
Is his hair so important ? Cut ad , short ad, not so lengzai ad, so ?
You've got someone who
wants you.. Just bare for the 1 half more years in school.
rather than leaving, i would not have the chance to see you anymore @.@
what is more important ? me or your hair ?
Is not like the school dosent provide u studies. its just tht you never attempt to.
Lazyness**Rawrs~! Im just upset.
Promised me
twice he wont leave.
And then again he thinks about leaving.
*
cries *
Ca is a
cry baby =(
just .. just.. just for the sake of me. Dont leave. *
begs in the heart *
* thinks in mind *
~i love you~Maybe it was what happen a few days back.. i got a sense of fear talking to him.
No not fear. Just
mind blank.I cannot open my mouth to talk to him. Afraid or? Nothing is in my mind. I would just stare at him and my mind
plays these words :
Please dont leave me,
I love you.
I really do.
I want my future to have you.
I want to be with you forever.
Dont leave me @.@
( Yea note to all : I am emo when it comes to these stuff. Too love? )
Yea. As i said. Because the impact on the last occurance was too deep. My mind is still blank.
It needs time to heal. Which I dont know when. Rawrs.
Yes yes. I can laugh i can smile when i hear jokes or see funny things.
I can look happy at school and so on.
But still inside me. which nobody knows im still sad and upset.
Dont know. Tracy say i always cry. I cannot withstand even a little pain maybe. I just dont wanna show it.
Go back time.. Yay! i saw yc waiting for meeeeeeeeeeeeee =D
haha * smiles in heart * haha then sat at bunga raya there waiting for parents~
chat chat chat~ at least i knew how to open mouth to talk.
Felt relieve a lil, happy i guess. Mum reached.
Ca : Mamii lai le loh~ *kiss*
Yc : Byebye dear~ wo ai ni.
Ca : yay!! wo ai ni ^^ byebye~
wakaka im happy hehs =D
even for lil thing he does im happy.
This is ca ^^
~* Note to everyone!! im so public eh ? writing these stuffs ONLINE. Public = =
Just that when im emo im gonna write everything haha.. PEOPLE!! Just read and dont comment much. I love my dear very much~~ so what ? im happy so i express =D hehs ~*
It would be the end of rainbows..
It would be the end of everything..
If our love ends. Loves You. So Much~*
:: EriCa ::
As the music fades..
I will try to let our love fade too~*
~
♥~EriCa~♥
Paint~*
"Friday, April 4, 2008" • 10:38 AM writes:
today~was a boring n depressed day for me.
i just had no mood to face school~ haha depressss~ =D
oh well.. we had computer classes for our last period.
guess what the teacher made us do ?
' Your Exam papers are ready. Extra 10 marks will be give for you. 5 for your attitude. 5 for your artwork.'* again pls? * artwork ?? i thought it was comp class. Yes! comp class. Drawing in
Paint has marks for you =D also, its in my
fomative test 2~ * omg face *
We started drawing.. thinking what to draw.. Paint - -
its been years since i touched that program~ haha
Me and Yiru~ drawing XD
The results of my drawing =D *it glows!!*
Yiru's drawing~ haha reco a dino ? XD teacher did not hahah
Hui Xsin's artwork~ cute huh ? XD
It would be the end of the rainbows..
It would be the end of everything..
If our love ends. Loves You. So Much~*
:: EriCa ::
As the music fades..
I will try to let our love fade too~*
~
♥~EriCa~♥
Emptyness...
"Thursday, April 3, 2008" • 7:20 PM writes:
Don't even know how to start to blog.. i don't know what went wrong.. i don't know what i did wrong.. all i know.. is my wrong..
i loved this relationship.. so much.. just so much.. coz i never loved anyone else besides him..that much..yes..i do love my best friends and all.. but the love to them..is a different love to him..
it hurt so much.. to hear him say..he does not love me anymore..when he said..he had enough of me..everything of me..is so troublesome that he had gave up on me..and i wondered the whole night...is it so hard to love me..am i so hard to b loved ?? my parents said it to me not only once.. if i had a bf.. it would be very hard for him to stand me.. i really wanted to know.. what are the bad points of me..
Would someone..just tell me?
I want to change myself.. though result may not be sure to come.. but i wanna try.. i really want to.. if i had hurt him so much.. i want to change..
I could not let go of this relationship.. i really couldn't.. for the sake i really does love him so much.. my hands would not let go.. and when he say end.. my mind has gone mad.
I do not know how to face the world anymore.. neither does my parents or my friends.. yea they do care about me.. all that i know.. but i just dont know how to face them..
i DON'T even KNOW how to face MYSELF...
it was so scary without him.. yea.. everyone would tell me.. he's not important this and that.. but they do not understand how much.. i actually love him.. more than anything else.. i felt so empty.. my mind was blank.. i walked without a direction... and was wondering.. who in the world would love me now..pathetic eh ?
all day.. all night i cried...and discussed with him.. he gave me an option to be back with him..it was an easy yes.. but till now i didn't know why i could not say it on that night.. i just kept asking questions.. " why treat me this way.. why?" i did answered him.. but I wasn't satisfied..i did not know what am i feeling.. i dont know what the heck is happening in the world..
When i ask..
Do u love me? ~no~
if i answered you.. would we b back to normal ? ~if u answered its not a must for me to love you~
and what i did all to u.. was a waste? ~i think so~
did u appreciate me? ~maybe~
didn't u say.. u would not leave me ? i asked u a thousand times.. and u got mad once because you said i did not believe you.. and now? ~I don't remember anything~
the last question.. did make my heart broke.. from pieces to dust... if its to exaggerate..
its like.. the long relationship.. that i've try so hard to build together.. and all now is forgotten.. i have to start all over again.. and what else? our 1st year anniversary was coming..
he said he had had enough.. he dont wanna care about me no more.. i'm too troublesome for him... i'm too stubborn.. he did not want this feeling anymore.. that's why he left me.. he said.
He sound happy.. he sound free.. should i be happy for him ? no.. if i should i could not do it either.. i just couldn't.. i LOVE him
Today.. i sms-ed him and ask.. am i still your gf?
he said yes..
but i have no more feeling of assurance anymore.
went to school..at 1st i did not wanted to go.. but they prompted me to go..
i dont know how to open my mouth when i saw him.. i did not even dare to look at him.. my eyes were swollen.. i cried the whole night.. i could not sleep.. my mind only had him..
how i wish he said he was joking..i could not stand no more.. but to sit there and cry silently..
when the bell rang..he came he try to wake me..
and i wondered.. who i am to you now? what are we?
he knew i cried..he did not say anything just looked at him..and the question still lies in my mind.. do u love me ? he was like normal.. treating me like normal.. but he didn't talked much..
i was blurred.. my mind was blank.. i was looking at him that's all..i couldn't open my mouth..nothing was there for me to say.. though alot of questions lies in me.. breaktime is over~
lunch time came.. i came to look for him.. he did not talk either.. and i finally had courage to ask him some questions..
Can you... don't leave me ? ~ dont know~
Do you.. still love me? ~dont know~
i felt so unsure..i felt so sad..
sat there cried again.. i cannot stand the pain..
later~ bell rang.. he woke me..saying.. dont cry.. dont cry anymore..
no matter what he says.. i just felt not assured.. i was afraid.. i was hurt..i dont know how to face nor think anymore..
going back home time.. never talk.. nothing.. when i went to another gate to go back.. he just walk straight without looking.. not even a bye.. n my heartache so much.. even though it may be nothing much.. but at a time like this.. something little would hurt me as much.. i stopped myself from crying.. i just.. dont know nothing anymore..
i did wondered..is this somekind of test ? how i hope it was.. and how i hope he would say he love me again.. i dont know how much i have hurt him.. But.. i've been hurt a lot too this time.. i really wish he would just.. try to.. sayang me ? i dont know.. i dont know.. i dont know nothing..
yiru said.. u can see.. whether he still loves you anot.. i dont dare to even think anymore..
no more..
if i think about the days without him.. it hurts so much..
i dont know nothing....no....no more............no.................
I dont know how to be normal again.. im seriously mad.. my mind is always blank..
he did not replie me today either..
the coldness.. the cold way he treat me.. hurts~* =(
ca.. where are you?
ca.. where is your happy and blessed days?
God.. where are You?!!! T_________________T
I prayed every night that dont let us break!!! WHY?!
i do not dare to blame You..
God.. where are You ?
* i wan to try to change.. just somehow.. tell me what am i wrong.. tell me my character.. tell me how to change..
I DON'T wanna let go!!!! NO!!! i WON'T give up!!!
for the SAKE that i LOVE YOU!!!
Wong Yung Cieh!! I love you!! I love you!! I love you!!
I love You Forever!!
hehe
:: ~ Ca is OVER.. But the NEW ca BEGINS ~ ::
hope i can do it.. gosh~
+u+u ca!! ^^
Dearie~
^^
Part of the valentine gift i made ~
It would be the end of the rainbows..
It would be the end of everything..
If our love ends. Loves You. So Much~*
:: EriCa ::
As the music fades..
I will try to let our love fade too~*
~
♥~EriCa~♥
Choral Speaking 08~ * Freaks *
"Tuesday, April 1, 2008" • 9:00 AM writes:
Freaks~*
today is BIG DAY ..
~the day had arrived to face our fears.. the Choral Speaking we did with all our peers~
part of the script with my editings XD
* WEEKS AGO *
yea.. 1st we didnt wanted to join.. we're not
stage lovers~ instead..
backstagers who don't like the spotlight much.. and our school's stage is just too small.. so we dont really have a feeling of.. a
Big spolight upon us =D*
Then our teacher had some mind problems i guess? no offence but.. we didnt wanted to join.. and the word she reply was
" this is bad. this is very bad. You all said you wanted to join. And now? all of you are pulling out. what kind of students are you ? " and started her way of insulting us in her kind of way..
So fine, we joined. practiced. NOW..
today is the day~ =]
the morning weather~ 7.30 a.m
Before we took off~ The van i was on ~
Reach school at 7.15am~ took off at 8a.m coz azza was late.We need to go to a school in subang jaya.. next to the old airport..
which is really far from our school. We past midvalley on the way .. *drools* i wanna go down to shop XD
The federal highway was so jam.. we were definitely late
Look at the jam~ and we were only at Taman Desa omg??
And we were abit late? 9++ we reached.
The road to the school was small.. and we were like.. omg.. this place is like a jungle..coz there were only plain lands there .. just plain.
And when we reach the school gate.. * JAWS DROPS *
omg?!! The school was like those technology schools..new and stylish ?! better than mine at least.. just qualify to name it a PRIVATE SCHOOL
Part of the school.. Just the primary school part =D
Amazing school huh ? Sekolah Apiit Bestari or Apiit Smart School.
A rich company's school and also newly build during 2006
Sad. I didnt get a chance to study here i guess.. im old. XD
There were 8 other schools there..
Their uniforms were funny XD .. some even wif gold uniforms ~ haha.. i prefer mine.. Just simple and unique =DD
People were looking at us with a laughing face~ Gawd.. they were looking down at us.
But ohwell.. i dont care.. at least i don look like them wif ugly uniforms =D
The stage~ Freaks out us =(
When it was our turn.. it was damn freaky..
all of us were like shivering and stuffs coz its been years since we gone on stage AND we have never competed state level before. Sobs~
There were alot of mistakes when we were doing it.. we did better in school
i guess we were too nervous.. i dont blame anyone. i was shaking too =X
The juges was fierce looking.. it was scary~
Ohwell we din win of course.. But we did get this~
This would make our school's name rise. We had joined =D
And this~ our cert. Which is in our teachers hand and I STILL HAVEN'T GET IT =(
Everything ended. The 1st deserves its place. They were Great. Went to loiter around other people's school.
Crap. It was so damn nice~ i rather staying there hahaha. It was like if i had went back to my own school i would feel awkward and ask ' is this a PRIVATE SCHOOL ? '
Thier swimming pool~
The canteen~
The cookery lab~ new huh
The model of thier school building~ big huh~ ? XD
Haha before we left we took some group pics too =D
The guys~ and an extra. *tracy* XD
The girls ~ ^^ friggin posers XD
It would be the end of the rainbows..
It would be the end of everything..
If our love ends. Loves You. So Much~*
:: EriCa ::
As the music fades..
I will try to let our love fade too~*
~
♥~EriCa~♥
Jesus~!
Abigail
May 2007
